today i left home middle of day from work :/ . flu trying to come, feeling very tired.
played games just and analyzed hand lines, and read anything + relaxing. i dont think i will go to work tomorrow, because cant even go in shower now, all muscles hurt + feel heavy in body.
mräyh.. i hope im energetic tomorrow evening then, because i dont want to say to that boy, that "nooo we dont drive now". ok im too kind :D but anyway .. and i know he have not money, so i want him to "earn" money for driving, so that i can give him a bit money :D
ye im crooked :D but in good way. i wanted in work to give him money but how will it look like if just like that give, he will think im flirting or smth :D:D:D help help -.-
today snowed very much.
öäää... jååååååååå i go back to bed to lay little. or nah i go first smoke.
maybe later play more. need remember to take aconite after 20 mins. have taken 2 times it today already. with it im trying to stop flu of coming. + echinaforce ofcourse and honey and all vitamines. ginger + garlic dont have now. need market tomorrow anyway. or if i get very sick tomorrow, then someone else must go shop for me. jåååååååå ok baj
torstai 25. helmikuuta 2016
keskiviikko 24. helmikuuta 2016
snowing snowing drop drop drop
or no.. water make drop sounds. not snow.
brothers car is maybe 1m under snow now, have not cleaned or drove with it in 1 week soon.
because no intrest to start it in -10c or clean from 1m snows. now is not -10 anymore but earlier in this week was. the car is not real winter car, and i have not warmingpost in the parking lot, so feels little unfair to start it when very cold, poor motor. thats why i let it stay there then and use brother or marika when need to get somewhere :D like today.. needed to feed mörri, so marika drove me to there.
today i spent much energy at the work, worked fast and with full energy, now it revenges then -.- but nonono cant go sleep or i wont sleep tonight then.. but there was rush with some job, had to get it done before tomorrow morning, but i worked too fast and completed it already today xD even i would have few hours time tomorrow morning too. hmh.
then tomorrow can be boring morning o.O
small doubt that some kind of flu trying again to catch me. throat feeling weird today since the morning. bah.. i dont let it come. i have my own witch methodes and herbs here xD.
17:10 loooool.. i got frightened when my doorbell ringed, cuz im not waiting any guests. then i opened and some soldierboys there asked for money donation for some their mmm i forgot what.. some project. i just gave 50 cent cuz didnt have much coins :D:D:D , then i had to fill my name + paied sum in some öö.. paper. why they needed my name there? hm.. nvm.. anyway they were happy xD other neighbours didnt open door to them.
also i wonder how they got in here (house stairs), because down door is always locked. seem like the army has special permissions .. -.-
idk if i go to gr today at all. somehow distressing some thing, which i dont tell here -.-
right now im in some aka which nobody know. hähäää...>:D
i hate number 11 (numerologia), everytime i feel somehow distressed and emotions and all are weird. sdgaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaijuhbsfbijusdbisdbji...... but idk what i want to do then , to feel "normal" . hmm.. or know what, but cant. hmm.
at the work also all feel so strange, all ppls. all situations. and like all ppl are somehow open books and idk how to explain -.- pffffff. and i more feel emphatic for ppl somehow, today also at work i noticed how some ppls had some worries or need of smth and i cant help, then i feel sorry that i cant help. even i didnt even speak or ask them :D ok now i talk strange things so blablbal. but here you see, im strange when 11 xD
and when i last time was 11, then also at work felt too much things, and distressed, and i almost escaped home from there. but then sense won and continued work as normal.
maybe i should go sleep so that todays day go faster to next. annoying..
deepy and creepy shitt.
again same restless as yesterday. thats why i write now to calm down. idk if this helps. maybe after writing i will continue be restless. but im tired.. dont want even to do anything actions. but mind wants actions. body not. a bit contradictory xD so what i do then. ööhm..
all my favourite blogs also are in the break.. nothing intresting, i mean interesting, to read nowadays. im lazy to press backspace button to remove wrong words, so i just continue write and correct different. hohohoh..
aa.. i must (when get energy/motivation/inspiration go up to garage to check if my iceskates are there. because i can need them any day or any weekend. little planed with bro if we someday go skate and shoot a bit the puck. but i think my skates blades are rusty/damaged, need to go sharpen them somewhere. but where is this somewhere.. some sport shop? and does sport shop writes together or separated? heh.. need to check in google. eeh.. somewhere they type sportshop, somewhere sport shop. cant trust even in google nowadays xD yes yes i admid i have sometimes problems with compound words -.-
if its some words that i rarely use, then i must little think.
17:30 aha coffee ended of the cup. brb need fill it again------> smoke also need--->
17:35 Six Etudes For Piano - q = 108 - Phillip Glass,Bruce Brubaker plays now on headphones. i must always listen to music with headphones when im writing something or need to be creative. if music plays on speakers, then i cant focus in creative things in same way. in headphones music is closer to ears and all outside disturbings are away then.
brother is now in new zealand. pretty faraway from kajaani xD. first he travelled to usa, and t here he rented ford mustang v6, and drove with it in anywhere and to las vegas, nevada and so on. very nice there when i saw the photos. i want also thereee.. then he travelled from there to hawaii, honolulu, and now new zealand, and if i remember right, next to thailand. world around trip :P
if i didnt have fobias for dirty and insanitary areas + disgusting insects, spiders, food poisonings and all kind of exotic sicknesses and so on, i would also love to travel.
and seem like i will not travel for a long time to other countries, for example to norway. because father cancelled all jobcontacts and registrations in norway, and registrated to finland, he will not need to go there anymore. muuh.. and surely i wont just like that go there alone either. if i had my own car and much money, for fuel, hotell and blablabl, sure then i could alone drive for small trip there but nah so nah. sometimes i miss stö -.- how i walked there in the nature with tipsu in wind + rain. and fresh air. but ok memories are memories. life continues.
17:45 idk what to write.
17:48 hmmm.. thinking thinking. sense escaped to honolulu now seem so.
17:49 need soon put dishes in machine. also need shower. but shower can wait, usually at the latest in 8 pm i go there, then i have 2 hours time to get hair dry before sleep. i dont use hair dryer, because it disturb skin just. weak skin as i have.
in the friday we go again maybe drive with jaguar, with 1 workmate. there is still his fuels in the car from last friday, so he "must" spend them now in coming friday :)
he live in the next house in front of me. heh what a coincidence..
when he came to same workplace mm.. 2 week ago, in coffeebreak we sat at the same table and the guys talked about cars, then he asked if the jaguar here at workplace park is my, and he have seen it before and blablab, then he asked "do you live in (address) ?"
and i said yes, why? how you know? , then he said he have seen the jaguar there under his balcon, then we laughed just how we live so close to each others :)
skraah..
18:00 ok enough writing for today. bye
brothers car is maybe 1m under snow now, have not cleaned or drove with it in 1 week soon.
because no intrest to start it in -10c or clean from 1m snows. now is not -10 anymore but earlier in this week was. the car is not real winter car, and i have not warmingpost in the parking lot, so feels little unfair to start it when very cold, poor motor. thats why i let it stay there then and use brother or marika when need to get somewhere :D like today.. needed to feed mörri, so marika drove me to there.
today i spent much energy at the work, worked fast and with full energy, now it revenges then -.- but nonono cant go sleep or i wont sleep tonight then.. but there was rush with some job, had to get it done before tomorrow morning, but i worked too fast and completed it already today xD even i would have few hours time tomorrow morning too. hmh.
then tomorrow can be boring morning o.O
small doubt that some kind of flu trying again to catch me. throat feeling weird today since the morning. bah.. i dont let it come. i have my own witch methodes and herbs here xD.
17:10 loooool.. i got frightened when my doorbell ringed, cuz im not waiting any guests. then i opened and some soldierboys there asked for money donation for some their mmm i forgot what.. some project. i just gave 50 cent cuz didnt have much coins :D:D:D , then i had to fill my name + paied sum in some öö.. paper. why they needed my name there? hm.. nvm.. anyway they were happy xD other neighbours didnt open door to them.
also i wonder how they got in here (house stairs), because down door is always locked. seem like the army has special permissions .. -.-
idk if i go to gr today at all. somehow distressing some thing, which i dont tell here -.-
right now im in some aka which nobody know. hähäää...>:D
i hate number 11 (numerologia), everytime i feel somehow distressed and emotions and all are weird. sdgaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaijuhbsfbijusdbisdbji...... but idk what i want to do then , to feel "normal" . hmm.. or know what, but cant. hmm.
at the work also all feel so strange, all ppls. all situations. and like all ppl are somehow open books and idk how to explain -.- pffffff. and i more feel emphatic for ppl somehow, today also at work i noticed how some ppls had some worries or need of smth and i cant help, then i feel sorry that i cant help. even i didnt even speak or ask them :D ok now i talk strange things so blablbal. but here you see, im strange when 11 xD
and when i last time was 11, then also at work felt too much things, and distressed, and i almost escaped home from there. but then sense won and continued work as normal.
maybe i should go sleep so that todays day go faster to next. annoying..
deepy and creepy shitt.
again same restless as yesterday. thats why i write now to calm down. idk if this helps. maybe after writing i will continue be restless. but im tired.. dont want even to do anything actions. but mind wants actions. body not. a bit contradictory xD so what i do then. ööhm..
all my favourite blogs also are in the break.. nothing intresting, i mean interesting, to read nowadays. im lazy to press backspace button to remove wrong words, so i just continue write and correct different. hohohoh..
aa.. i must (when get energy/motivation/inspiration go up to garage to check if my iceskates are there. because i can need them any day or any weekend. little planed with bro if we someday go skate and shoot a bit the puck. but i think my skates blades are rusty/damaged, need to go sharpen them somewhere. but where is this somewhere.. some sport shop? and does sport shop writes together or separated? heh.. need to check in google. eeh.. somewhere they type sportshop, somewhere sport shop. cant trust even in google nowadays xD yes yes i admid i have sometimes problems with compound words -.-
if its some words that i rarely use, then i must little think.
17:30 aha coffee ended of the cup. brb need fill it again------> smoke also need--->
17:35 Six Etudes For Piano - q = 108 - Phillip Glass,Bruce Brubaker plays now on headphones. i must always listen to music with headphones when im writing something or need to be creative. if music plays on speakers, then i cant focus in creative things in same way. in headphones music is closer to ears and all outside disturbings are away then.
brother is now in new zealand. pretty faraway from kajaani xD. first he travelled to usa, and t here he rented ford mustang v6, and drove with it in anywhere and to las vegas, nevada and so on. very nice there when i saw the photos. i want also thereee.. then he travelled from there to hawaii, honolulu, and now new zealand, and if i remember right, next to thailand. world around trip :P
if i didnt have fobias for dirty and insanitary areas + disgusting insects, spiders, food poisonings and all kind of exotic sicknesses and so on, i would also love to travel.
and seem like i will not travel for a long time to other countries, for example to norway. because father cancelled all jobcontacts and registrations in norway, and registrated to finland, he will not need to go there anymore. muuh.. and surely i wont just like that go there alone either. if i had my own car and much money, for fuel, hotell and blablabl, sure then i could alone drive for small trip there but nah so nah. sometimes i miss stö -.- how i walked there in the nature with tipsu in wind + rain. and fresh air. but ok memories are memories. life continues.
17:45 idk what to write.
17:48 hmmm.. thinking thinking. sense escaped to honolulu now seem so.
17:49 need soon put dishes in machine. also need shower. but shower can wait, usually at the latest in 8 pm i go there, then i have 2 hours time to get hair dry before sleep. i dont use hair dryer, because it disturb skin just. weak skin as i have.
in the friday we go again maybe drive with jaguar, with 1 workmate. there is still his fuels in the car from last friday, so he "must" spend them now in coming friday :)
he live in the next house in front of me. heh what a coincidence..
when he came to same workplace mm.. 2 week ago, in coffeebreak we sat at the same table and the guys talked about cars, then he asked if the jaguar here at workplace park is my, and he have seen it before and blablab, then he asked "do you live in (address) ?"
and i said yes, why? how you know? , then he said he have seen the jaguar there under his balcon, then we laughed just how we live so close to each others :)
skraah..
18:00 ok enough writing for today. bye
tiistai 23. helmikuuta 2016
hööööööööö hei
I want to write in english, but idk what to write, suddenly i feel that i have nothing to say xDD then, if i write in finnish, i find a lot to write about . hmm... maybe shy just.
well, somewhere must start. because i want to write write writeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee... anything about anything whenever feel so but in english, because need somehow keep english skills up, so that i dont forget, and perhaps little bit improve it, but im lazy to write 1000% correct english.. sometimes i have energy to focus in correct writing, then another days i write simple english with all possible errors :D and ppl laugh -.-
ooo already this much came text even i just blamed how i have nothing to say xD
typical gemini...
today very restless feelings (because of fullmoon craziness) and nervous and blalblab. I want to create something new...but got nothing ideas. then now i got idea if write in english this blog. hmm.. oh yes im stubborn and proud enough to write with big start letters. so shut up if its bothering you... :D:D:
earphones on ears.. (or headphones? ok what ever.. nobody cares.) .. music. good feelings etc. mmm but clock is running, should go sleep now, because slept too less last night. krääh.. yesterday night also slept very short night, but still i had much energy at work + after work too, same today also. strange..
usually im like zombie and distressed just if not slept enough.
ye.. today i got again inspiration to study palmistry.. in work also i couldnt focus in working, so there also i with phone surfed on all possible palmistry sites :D hahah.. but nobody saw so shsh... nooooooo.. ofcourse i worked veeeeeeeery haaaaaard... ;)
and ye in my head line is clear "writer's line" , so then got idea about this blog, that i must continue write either novells (but no ideas there now), or then blog. but boring to write in finnish. then english. more challenge..that i like. skriaaak...
idk.. now brain empty. aamen and heijåhåå hei. smoke ---> and sleep (i guess).
if then not get some impulsive ideas suddenly. ok hei.
well, somewhere must start. because i want to write write writeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee... anything about anything whenever feel so but in english, because need somehow keep english skills up, so that i dont forget, and perhaps little bit improve it, but im lazy to write 1000% correct english.. sometimes i have energy to focus in correct writing, then another days i write simple english with all possible errors :D and ppl laugh -.-
ooo already this much came text even i just blamed how i have nothing to say xD
typical gemini...
today very restless feelings (because of fullmoon craziness) and nervous and blalblab. I want to create something new...but got nothing ideas. then now i got idea if write in english this blog. hmm.. oh yes im stubborn and proud enough to write with big start letters. so shut up if its bothering you... :D:D:
earphones on ears.. (or headphones? ok what ever.. nobody cares.) .. music. good feelings etc. mmm but clock is running, should go sleep now, because slept too less last night. krääh.. yesterday night also slept very short night, but still i had much energy at work + after work too, same today also. strange..
usually im like zombie and distressed just if not slept enough.
ye.. today i got again inspiration to study palmistry.. in work also i couldnt focus in working, so there also i with phone surfed on all possible palmistry sites :D hahah.. but nobody saw so shsh... nooooooo.. ofcourse i worked veeeeeeeery haaaaaard... ;)
and ye in my head line is clear "writer's line" , so then got idea about this blog, that i must continue write either novells (but no ideas there now), or then blog. but boring to write in finnish. then english. more challenge..that i like. skriaaak...
idk.. now brain empty. aamen and heijåhåå hei. smoke ---> and sleep (i guess).
if then not get some impulsive ideas suddenly. ok hei.
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