jååh *yawn*

tired and woozy today. thx to valeriana pills. they effect too long :-/
and now mother said that she also know + her mother know, that valeriana keep long tired, and is not so good. now i also belive it. whole the day head feel woozy and musty, feels like i dont get air enough or smth. 

well, workday was anyway normal + good. food just was negative. everyday sausage in different formats. pleaseeeeee... i have eaten sausage everyday now, in nivala too ate. 

huh good i have my own food too here. made yesterday meatsauce. need just warm it and cook new potatoes/makaronis.

hehe.. yesterday when i woke up (tested valeriana first time that night then) , and i was making coffee. then when i put filter in machine, and i was going to put coffeepowder on the filter. but whaaaaaaaat i put there.. i put honey :D:D:  i was so messed in head and halfsleepy. again i put that to valeriana fault. rarely im so mixed up :P and those rare times when im mixed up, i can put something in fridge what dont belongs there..

mother was in my home today spending time, because they do some repairing in her home.
when i came home, and she was still here, she fixed my plants and washed them in shower :O and then she washed my kitchen table and etc. ( i tought its clean enough already), but for her nothing is never enough clean :D now she left to youngest brother's home to "clean" or smth.. spend time. because she "cant" go to her own home yet :D

yeeh.. tomorrow we go fundrive with jaguar. neighbour arttu drive with it, and marika too will come.

i tried to rest/lay little, but then laying began to feel too nice, and i got fear that i will fall asleep and wake up next time late in evening, so i had to stand up fast. otherwise i wont sleep tonight.

face is burning and red, because i have eaten unhealthy 1 week now. plan was to get eczema back for todays doctor. and guess what.. 1 hour before the doc time, someone nurse from there called to me and said doc is sick today, time is cancelled :D
murrrrr.. i have eaten unhealthy for nothing, and torturing with bad skin now :D
maybe my wicked plan turned just against myself. xD idk when is next time then. they said they will send new time in post.

brother is in thailand now. he come home in middle of april. good, so i can yet have his car :P:P

now i go make coffee------->

16:39 edit: i went to smoke to balcon. and i wondered why tipsu is there :D
she has been there for 1 hour? maybe :D:D:
so it seems like im still messed in head.. forgetting things. asdf...
good there is not cold now.. so she didnt freeze there.
ok now i go make the coffee. hei hei

soon is april. need to be careful for 1st april then :D

im already excited what jokes news paper will write 1st april. every year they write some lol news.

today work continued again. easter went nice. visited my cousin in my childhood city. there we did all kind of fun activities. cant say them all in english cuz too strange words..
and then we were at the easter campfire event, and i met many known ppl there whom i have not seen in maaaaaany years.. for example some girl from my class (junior school), whom i havent seen since 98 :D but i could still recognize her. and many other. pff.. my ex bestfriend was there too, but i didnt see her. there was so much ppl.

im still not tired, even i worked like crazy today. sweat only flew when i worked :D i tried again to do some record in speed i think ... :D:D:D (normal of me) :D  anyway boss was happy :) , needed complete some work for friday, but nahh.. tiina completed it today alone :))
that work was meant to do by many workers, because they are slow..

help help.. 31.3 i must to eczema doctor. i need eczema fast back :D:D:   because skin is good now :D doc will think im some liar when see my skin is allright. and i wont get some document which i need to something.. and i need to update my creme and medical salve recipes..  need hurry eat all kind of hamburgers, candies, cakes, drink coca cola, eat pizza, om nom nom  put just all kind of e-code foods to mouth, like garfield. and hurry close mouth , so foods dont fall out xD  also need to scratch skin on purpose so much as possible :D
tipsu also can help.. she has very khh cough cough ..sharp nails..  16 of them. i once counted. and when i counted, she bit and scratched me. she dont like if touch her paws.. or stomach. then your life is in the danger if itch her stomach. 

mm.. what else.. time is now 18:04   brb smoke. need to think there what more i can spam about.

18:07 i forgot to analyze what to spam about. i was thinking anything else things just while smoking. pfff..  well, i put some pictures then, since i now by hard work uploaded photos from phone to pc.

Kajaani river, behind my house. March.

behind me is my junior school, there outside was maybe 200 ppl, and could buy snacks and etc coffees there

käytiin leenan ja juhon luona kahvilla

idk who is that. someone idiot trying to skii probably, looks vaguely and distantly like that :D

soon skiing holiday tralallaaa...

Good and relax day in work. photoshop work mostly and Word work. Had to make business cards to one personell guy. I got honor to create new look for the business card. So, i gave ideas + commanded, and other guy next to me clicked all with photoshop. I cant yet use photoshop so good so i just adviced about visual things :D
Then later I made some poster's with Word. And we had again problems with our printer. It acted like it wanted. pssh.

Little sad that 1 of my workmates from wood area is last day tomorrow at work. I have now worked with him since october.

Kitchen is cleaned + washed and dishes are in machine. Good energy today seem so, since i can take care of home too :). Maybe because current work is only sitting, so i dont waste so much physical energy anymore as i did in woodwork. Good good..

Today was cold when i walked to work. I tought there is just some -5. but was -14.

Hihi idk what the coffeebreak personell are thinking now, because when i was going to home, and their trashbags was there on floor "waiting", so i just said "i can bring these since im now going out", and i took and brought them in the trashbox out. Im kind girl clap clap clap.

Annoying sniffles today, thanks to yesterdays cake I ate with coffee. Too much sugar again i think. So weak i am -.-  ..........   or can also be that i have not anymore so much eaten sugar, so body gets in shock when finally little eat. Should eat everyday even 1-2 spoon sugar, so body gets used :D and dont react so hardly when suddenly eat 100000 spoon. As I belive in cake is.

Lol in 2 line is similar words "sugar, so body gets" on top of each others. How awkward. but nvm.

edit: aha when i publish this post, then text move to other positions. in editor text sentences are in different place, because editor window is smaller.

2nd day in IT area

06:30 woke up. drank coffee. ate 1 small piece ryebread. chatted with one guy. then watched some videos and read some forum. then prepared for work.

07:35 i think i arrived to work. work start 8:00 but i seem to be so nervous + restless in morning, so i go earlier to work. heh. need tomorrow try to be slower in morning routines.
routine is to get out from my home 07:30, even its too early, i know. but routine speed is programmed in my head. need try change it. boss little smiled when i came to pc room some 07:45 xD. but np. he gave to me working clothes + shoes. pants i didnt take, because i dont like their ESD pants. if i now remember the letters correct. but clothes must be "electricity grounded", because we can get electricity attacks of machines when we repair them and so on. shoes too are electr.grounded. and in pc room is special area where is different carpet, and into that "ESD" area is not allowed to go without this shoes or clothes. and cuz the pants are so ugly so that i dont want wear them, im not allowed to repair anything yet :D i blamed to boss , and now he is looking for me some nicer pants from internet shop :D poor him.. maybe im too mean now :D and that kind of pants are not even cheap. because special material. mm and other strange security systems in that ESD area also. which i never could imagine about. intersting things..

today i got more known with system there, but worked too. had to make some ID cards or some, for new futural workers who soon start there, and some business cards for the personell. with photoshop i did and etc. then printed and cutted with some big cuttingmachine. that machine i didnt like, because the cutting blade was not accurate. -.-
it cutted some 2-3 mm wrong of the cutting line. needed little guess where it will cut.

ööh.. and what else i did.. aaa. and then i had to build some cottage layout folder. needed first print all out from pc, then organize them and put in folders. but then there was problem, some drawings were in wrong order (not my mistake), because some of drawings was in pc put in wrong alphabetical order, and some papers was missing alphabets, so i had to guess somehow what order need to put them in folder. but i put 1-2 drawing in wrong order, then boss checked and told me to rip the staplers out with some tool of folder which i had stapled. pfff. and then again do all from beginning. hih.
the folders was strange. they had some glue things and needed rip some gluepaper off, and then bend folder over staplers + glue somehow xD. confusing explaining but jeje.
rip english. buhuuuuuuuuuuuu. i hate when cant explain enough good something in foreign language.

then later we took temperature loggers from all kitchen fridges, freezers, etc cabinets. in every cabinet is a usbstick, which is saving the temperature log. and we must check them sometimes and keep diary. or smth. but windows 10 didnt like this usb sticks. then we had to fix some other computer to get win 7 working and blalbalb. some mess xD

and then time ran and i had to go home. we continue tomorrow morning.

also we had problem to get some power working in some computer.
and also we had to fix some printer for personell.

i dont remmeber what else we did. head still confused of all new things + learnings.
alot to remember what learned.

and our next project is to make some special network for all computers in the building, and then find route out of it. ok i didnt understand 100% how he explained. but smth like that. and boss self either dont yet know how to do it, and we all need to think how to do it :D

yeeh.. and i came home and relaxed little. then i suddenly jumped up from bed and cleaned floor, then vacuumcleaned here. and long time i have been annoyed by 1 light wire which goes under bed, and made vacuumcleaning difficult. now i finally took tape and taped it in to bed plates (under), so that wire is not anymore down in floor and disturbing my vacuumcleaning. manytimes the light falled to floor and lamp broke because of vacuumcleaning.

hmm and what next. feel hungry. need make coffee and eat the sandwich i took from work. idk what to eat in evening. i will not cook. in work was riceporridge with strawberry soup. its not keeping hunger long away. bhaa.. can boil some eggs. its easy food.
lol i now 3 days ago bought eggbox. and guess when i last time bought eggs? in september. because in fridge was old eggbox from september :D:D:D after it i have not eaten them. somehow got bored. now i again started. mostly by force cuz egg is so easy + fast food. + filling stomach good.

yee im 8 today. thats why i write everythings in details and spam a lot.
i would be pro in novell writing todya. but no time or energy. need whole day for it.
if once start writing, cant stop, and ops soon is night and must sleep. so better not even start. i have again new idea/theme in mind what i want to write about. but need select some boring day when i have nothing else to do.

in tooth is stabbing pain today. but its normal after dental measure, can feel stabbing few days. if i breath air deeply in, then aaaaaaaa... or if i breath cold air. then also.
better breath calm today mouth locked :D:D
in one root canal treated tooth was gone piece, so they fixed it yesterday.
and in next tooth was small hole, fixed it too. kruaak.

brother is now in hmm.. polynesia?. and yörh.. 2 days ago when he went to the shower. whaaat was waiting him thereeeeeeeeee. 1 big crab, 1 ugly big spider with long black legs, and 1 lizard. 3 cute friends waited for him there. the crab was most hardest to get out from there :D he with some floorwashing brush or some pushed it out from there. 
spider he moved or killed with shower water pressure. so hot water as just can get and fullllll speed. idk about lizard. what was its destiny. hmm. but anyway, again a good reason why i will never travel to asia. neeeeeeveeeeeeer. never. understand? not? ok come here so i hit you in head with a rolling pin.

but ok amen + hei. coffee need.

lool

yks toinenki alotti eile uuessa työssä. ja se oli vieläpä päivittäny omansa 30 minsaa mun päivityksen jälkee :D:D: mite voi olla mahollista. hatsjiuhhhhhh köh köh tsiuh . eli nyt sillä on pitkät ajomatkat. hm . hm. ellei sitte tee kotoa käsin. no en usko. joo toivottavasti kukkaa ei lue tätä tekstiä. en vaa jaksa kirjottaa mun raporttivihkoon. kynällä. koneella helpompaa. no iha sama jos lukee, ei se tajua kuitenkaa mitää xD.

kahvia just juon. kohta töihi. kello on 06:51.

6:57 hirvittää oikeesti. ajaako se sinne työpaikalle asti joka aamu o.O
entä sitku on pääkallo kelit? just joo -.- mahtaa joutua tosi aikasi heräämää.
minusta sen kannattas muuttaa sinne. vaikka onha seki hullunhommaa.. jättää talo ja kaikki. tai hommais vuokralaisia taloonsa. ja sit vuokrais jonku kämpän sieltä ************.
jaa nonii hei. pakko oli kirjottaa mietteitä etten mieti näitä koko aamua nyt :D

march 1st

I changed work area in the same building, now I work with pc's and other electronic :). We repair them if customers bring their computers/electronic devices, or then we do random IT work. For example take care of all computers/devices in the building. Also we have a 3D printer. Interesting to get more known with it :P. half workday i had to learn new things + rules at work, before and after dentist. then i felt so hungry + bad in middle day, that they let me to go home little earlier. because i was not allowed to eat at all then.

ääh.. hard to focus in english now. feeling so poisoned + tired after dentist, because layed 50-60 mins in dentistchair with all possible torturing tools in mouth -.-
+ i have been there and here at the city. 
first with jaguar drove everywhere, then with mother ate lunch, and i first time drove with her car. she stole the rest of cigarette from me, and standed smoking next to the car. and then she told me to start the car (for warm it), and i did. then i didnt let her in the driver seat anymore xD she little disagreed with it, but i was stubborn, so she had to let me drive. kriaak. 
aaand then we went to the flea markets, because she told me she saw some skis there last time and wanted me to check if they are right size. but nah, too long. if im 160cm, skis must be 15-20cm higher of me, if i want skating style skis. 

normal skis can be little longer. skisticks then 160x 0,90 = 144cm high. (own lenght x 0.90) this rule is for skatestyle skii sticks. idk for normal classical style skisticks then. ok bla bla. 

only this week work anymore, then starts winter holiday. and then i try to get anyone with me to Vuokatti. i want to skii there.
if i dont find any cheap skis from flea markets, then i will rent them in vuokatti.

mm.. and all lakes are frozen now. can there too, if i get my own ones. but first i should test in vuokatti if i even have fitness for skiing, or if astma will disagree with me :D
sure need first take ventoline before skii.

i dont need to feed mörri anymore sofar, because brother's ex gf took the keys to bro's home, and will live there some while. she wanted away from her own city. maybe bored.

tsihhhhhhhh hihihiihii... what next? have any ideas?......-------.....------.....- i think i need fresh air. here in room is somehow dead air. and when i came home, sun shined very opently to room, thats why here is so bad air now + over warm. now i closed curtains. but need open door yet to get air. but i also go out there to ger air trought filter. ok hei. i mean trough. not trought. many words i have written very wrong many years. i dont shame.