hihuuuu

9 days vacation left. help help. anyway i have enjoyed a lot and slept looong. been picnicking, sunbathed, played a lot and just generally relaxed.

average temperature for july 22c. sometimes been thunderstorms and heavy rains.

i have little forgot stronghold crusader because got addicted of farming simulator 2015 :P
but it will soon go over. especially when work begins, then no time for fs15 anymore, cant play that game just for a 30 mins. need many hours time for it. maybe thats why too i play it very hardly now when I yet have time. shc is better for workdays, because its quicker game in time.

came just from the shower. need 'aftershower' smoke-->

16:36 yeeh.. today morning i tried to be long time without the first morning smoke. (because lungs need to wake up too). so 1 hour after waking i smoked but i pulled in cheek :D i tried to cheat my brain that ok now i have smoked. if its just the habit that must smoke after wake up xD. but after half an hour i lost nervous for some annoying thought, so i had to go really smoke :-/. well, need tomorrow try again.

my little brothers go today to some big family party to another city. they keep that party every year summer. i have never been with them to there and never will either. because i dont want to see my cousins drunk. i have good memories of them when we were kids, we played a lot and spent time together. i dont want to destroy this memory and replace the memories with some adult drunk memories. huh..

blog writing is somehow more difficult now, somehow dont dare to write almost. when sun moved in cancer, then lost interest. gemini sun was best time for blogging. then didnt feel ashamed and could write any shit -.-. maybe i become braver again when sun moves in lion. will see.. and now during the cancer sun i have been more emotional, and i dont want to write some emotion shit here. then i will shame rest of my life :D and need jump in water well. or hide head under ground like the ostrich does o.O

when this hair is dry, i go to shop. with my poor coins. avast shop accidentally invoiced the vpn license 2 times from my bank account. i sent message to them, and they will send the refund back so soon as possible. 

phuaaah... my fake wasp nest which i made of coffee filters, seem to work. the wasp's visit near the balcony fence, but they quickly turn back :D they see the ball and believe there already live some wasps :D good good :D. 

jööh.. what next..

muuuuuuuuuuuuu...... gg mood. cant write more. bye