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very hot today, and yesterday also was.

we have a new pet here in work place. my workmates christened him/her as Matti. and its a fly. :D sometimes matti is teasing me by sitting on this screen, and stealing the mouse cursor :D i cant move mouse cursor at all then. because this is a touchscreen computer (thinkcentre). seems very sensitive, since a small fly can effect so much :)

aha.. matti came back. he sit on my upper arm now :D maybe he noticed that im writing about him, so he came to watch if im writing anything bad :D

i want to go make campfire somewhere at lake beach with someone today or tomorrow.. so nice weathers now.. fry some hotdogs..

im thinking if i end here at work somewhere in the end of august, so i can keep a bit vacation before school begins... *-)

Putin visited finland yesterday, he spent 1 whole day here. i have followed news about his visit with great interest :P, especially the huge security arrangement was very interesting. russians brought much security tools + devices + security staff with few big airplanes 1 day before when putin arrived. hard work to be so influental big leader, need to live in repeated fear and be paranoid 24/7 of who will poison you next or try to kill you. im happy im just a small and innocent girl who can walk freely on the streets, without need of watching behind shoulders..

i think matti is a junkie, because he was sitting at glue tube and eating the glue. hmm..
nowadays cant trust even insects. now he sit on my left hand and wash hands.

yesterday some customer brought blueberry pie to us :D was very tasty. she came here to get help for lost blueberry pai recipe, she didnt know how to use history in internet explorer :D (why she still uses the IE? :S ), so workmate taught her how to find lost links in history, then the boss joked and said that he also wants blueberry pai. so the customer woman said "yes i will bring tomorrow" :D 

im only one girl here in work, among 4 man. sometimes its little distressing when they are talking their "boy things about girls" :D:D i try to let it in of the left ear, and out of the right ear. well.. im used to it now, so its ok. other fellow girlworker ended 1 month ago and left to another work. 2 main workers and 3 internship workers. 

yes i call my self girl. i dont like the word woman, sounds so old and serious :S.
when i begin to reach 60 age, maybe then i can think about calling my self a woman. hmms..

time is 11:50. weekend is coming closer hour by hour. need to google what i want to eat today. i have lately had very bad fantasy or just bored of my basical foods. so i want to eat something else. also i have had bad appetite now in this month. maybe the heat make it, or then my sleep regimes. or or.. idk.. and few times felt very nauseous too. idk why.. i googled for my self all possible sicknesses already :D paranoid -.-

can also be the stem renu i have been taking over half yearn now. i read that the stem renu focus in certain body area by its period, so it will/can cause odd symptomes in body when its trying to repair the problem. then when stem renu worked on that problem, it moves to next one. its very interesting how it works. i noticed during this 6 months, that i can tolerate less sleep, and still feel ok energy without need of day nap, and im not sure if i imagine it, but i feel like my sight is very little bit better. im btw going to optician in near days or weeks. Kela will pay glasses + sigh test. ( i lost my previous glasses, so i need new before the school begins, need to see to wall what teacher is teaching...) now in summer i have just used my sunglasses (with -1 strenght) if i have had to drive a car. i drove with norwegian friends car sometimes here in kajaani. before it its gone like half year that i have driven. because youngest brother moved to tallinn and took jaguar with him, and my mom's car is so hatsiuuuh...cough cough...awful, that i dont want to drive with it :D.  uff.. im so envy to ppl who owns a car. maybe i also can some day in far far future. hope so. if i pass the school, which takes 1.5-2y, then if get work.. thennnnnnn. buy some used v70 volvo :). ofcourse.
big dreams big dreams clap clap clap - for a poor church rat. but hei, lets not whine now, i live in the centrum and have all shops near me. how many ppl have all important shops behind corner? so, need to be happy now that i can just walk everywhere.

mm.. i go smoke. hei hei.
12:10  now im back.

i lost nerves for rye flour hair washing, because its so hard work to wash ryes of hairs. they dont easily go off -.- sure hair become very nice + light + fluffy with rye washing, but the work in washing is annoying. need to wash like 10 mins it of hair, and still some of rye flakes stay in head :D and then ppl will think i have some dead skin everywhere around head :S
so im currently back to normal shampoo + conditioner. i know my head skin + hair dont like this decision, but anyway easier way to wash.. im impatient. maybe i try to find another wash method when find motivation/inspiration again. egg yolk washing also was not ok, because it make hair smell. hair became nice of this egg yolk, but the smell was not so nice.

im melting soon, so hot here. need soon bring clothes in wash. nice to do laundry in work time, because workplace is so close to home :D just to walk up to my flat, take the laundry basket, walk to another building where laundry room is, put clothes in machine, put coins in, and book time. then walk with empty basket to workplace and leave the basket here on the workplace corridor, and take it with me when i go again to my flat :D

bla bla so much rambling. im in writing mood today. i need new tlph.. not enouigh space in current old iphone for much apps. there are so many interesting apps that i need, but no space in memory. because photos + videos waste much space, but i dont want to delete them. sure i move them in pc every month, but some of videos/photos i want to keep in phone, so that i can watch them if need :D yes im weird i know.

iphone 7 is my current dream. but mm.. i dont yet dare to think too much about it, because im not sure what kind of money i will get when i will study, so im not yet sure if i would be able to pay the phone. i was thinking to pay it in month parts. but still the month price will be much for my small economy. need yet follow the situation and consider.. + i feel ashamed that i still have this old ip5. all other teen girls already have newest iphones and honors and samsungs and sonys. grrrrrrrrr.... how they have money for it? pappa betalar? -.-

oki its true that smoke waste a lot money. but those other girls waste much money in makeups and such shitt. which i do not. so its 50/50. i waste in smokes, they waste in their beauty stuffs.. ops i forgot i spend much money in healthy things too. but.. better pay of them, than pay of several medicines + doctor visits in older age. others in 50 age will cry + whine how every place hurt and how they have this and that infection + illness, when i just walk with nice health and smile happily. or, so i hope :D uff...

i have started to eat banana everyday for breakfast. gives much better energy + mood than some sandwich. but sure then in lunch time i eat sandwich, and then when i eventually get home, then make dinner, or if no appetite, then later in evening.

yes yes.. hmm.. need remember to take cash out. a friend will bring rizla pack later today, in pack is 60 rizla books.. and he take just 25e of it. they are from sweden. i have not bought rizla's from grocery in 2 years soon. 3x cheaper when buy a big pack from sweden.

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