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i'm at work but np :D nothing to do right now. in morning i made an inventory here in work for some stuff. now idle then. also i updated my CV. in stomach is butterflys because last work day in next week wednesday. and i have no information yet if i can continue or not.. help help. 3 days left. sdaf.... pliiiis let me continueee. i like to work here. its like paradise to be here <3. and money run.

hmmms.. in last weeks i was sick. lungsinfection. but i went early to get treatment, so infection didnt become bad. crp was just 22. but in asthma 22 is much, they said. antibiotics they gave to me. also i had to breath "spiira" medicine with mask. sickness suddenly just started from nowhere with normal coughing, then became worse and worse and soon couldnt breath good. i guess streetdust made it. so much dust here in city now, because snows melted and all shitts on the asphalts fly in air when is wind, and i live full in centrum where is active trafic right under balcon, so all dusts come immidiately in to my home. 

haa.. and mother impulsivity said in the same day when i was at the treatment: "nooow we go buy an aircleaner, i saw a one in discount." 
now is nice air in my home :)) nose not so stuck anymore as before. 

yesterday (thursday) was occupational safety lesson. was veryy heavy lesson because much information come in head nonstop, then need to try remember all what hear. also in room was bad air. i almost fainted there. and head felt heavy + almost hurt. but i survived and then in end of the lesson we got the test. only 1 of us workers got all right :D  we all were so tired and felt bad. i got 31 right of 36. problem was little in finnish understanding, missunderstood some words order in a sentence on questions. thx father + mother that we left to norway when i shoulded stay in finland and learn my own motherlanguage -.-
my finnish is techincally very weak because lost 5 years of important finnish language lessons during the time we lived in norway..

in finland this occupational safety card is very needed. many workplace can ask it.
jihaa.. now i have hygiene passport (which i got of household and economic school 2010),  and work safety card. what else cards i will take? xD hot work card? nah.. hmm


glada vappen! it was swedish. idk if i will anyhow celebrate it. if my familymembers want and are idle, we would go to make a campfire somewhere and fry sausages. >:D
or then i just stay alone inside 4 walls and play games and have own fun.
hahha.. in sunday morning will be horrible wake-up. every year 1st may morning there will go a car with megafon :D and play some ugly workers march songs with 100000000% volume. aaaaaaaaaaaaaa....:S  every year 1st may morning my heart almost stop for that noise when they drive and play it in streets, drive past my balcon everywhere. then after car follow much ppl with some shields. <--- shields. ahahhahaha...xD my toughts are in shc now.

ok shshhs.  now its 10:07. and my english in this blog is horrible and awful and terrible and hirveä and kauhea and etc. but im relax human who like to write relax. so so zo zo zo zo zo z. zzz.. yes i slept good. i woke 30 mins before alarm clock. hahhhh hahahhaha.
i tired continue sleep but impossible. then i went to smoke. then back to bed to try get again sleep. but i layed just eyes closed and analyzed all possible worldthings. then 06:26 i closed alarmclock before it would launch after next 4 mins. then hoppp and up and go make coffee and again smoke. and watch my yesterdays thriller shc game in twitch, where in end i suicided myself cuz felt tired + needed go to shower because clock was much. jåå.
that game was so hard. and i was tired from before. if i knew how they will attack me, i wouldnt relax in peactime so much :D i didnt build almost, but went afk :D i tough they were nobos.. -.-

some antti tuisku song plays in radio. my boss love music. he always put volumes to 60% and play mostly rock. but sometimes list hits too. i try to ignore the musics always just and focus in my works. (ppl who knows me, knows the reason).

mmh.. i get rush after work. i must bring some papers to benefit office. and i idiot forgot one apotecary recipe home. so i need go to home to get it before i continue to that office. i wanted to bisycle directly to the office from work, an another route which is faster. mräyh..

i thought we today go to gym with workers, but we dont. i took my gym clothes + shoes for nothing. but np, this match good, because i dont want to sweat when must after it to that office + shop food. 

brother brought finally his jaguar to workshop. 2 different faults was. catalysator propably broken, and then some other small thing, which effect that car is not so powerful, but use power halfways. some tubs was damaged. or idk. im not car expert so i say all wrong :D
but anyway something with ignition, which is not giving enough powers when speed up with car. or smth. kjhsgdjkgdfsjkgdf. why i cant engliiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiish. cuz im noob and lazy to learn it.


photobook is sent to photo Shop. after 3 days its ready to go get. i put all my nice 2011-2014 norway photos in it. book i named "my life in stö 2011-2014"  <--- that ö with norwegian ö ofcourse :D i cant now get it cuz no norwegian keyboard settings now. or can in google steal but dont need now. cloap clap clap. when i need some strange letter, i somehow write some suggestive sentence in google , for get that needed letter.

but yes, idk why we had to make this photobook :D and workplace pay it. maybe for training just if in future somewhere need to know. that book costs 30€.

annoying pimp in cheek. its like skin, but little up of skin. same color with skin + not hurt. maybe came of all poisons i have lately had to eat. pfff.. if its not gone after some time, i will cut it by doctor? :D  i will not keep this kinds shitts in my face for ever -.-
in my arm also is skincolor pimp, it came of burn injury. that also i will maybe cut if it will not go away. but ehm.. then will come ugly scar? joo-oh.. nice problems nice problems clap clap clap. and what else problems.. need to think :D. sec need to think silenty on this chair and feel my body and mind to know what problems. hmm.. nowhere feel anything. no hungry. no pains everywhere. no need to toilet either. pfff boring. nothing problems. but i wanted probleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeems. or ops ok now im strange + psycho. need to become normal and write normal things. or ambulances come kidnap me.
smoke i want now. after 30 min is lunch. i eat foods in 15-20 min. then go out to smoke with coffee. sec need to check what food there is today. if is fishfood, then i must eat some boring pizzapiece at coffee cantine.. meatsteak and potatoes. aha.. ok.

in this week is very nice weathers. sunny and warm with small wind. yesterday was +14. and nights are warm too. can soon sleep balcon door open. now too i left balcon door open so that my home is fresh smelling when i arrive home tired + sweating. i hope tipsu dont jump down from balcon in while :D yesterday she was little too intrested when there was 2 pigeon birds down of balcon. she jumped to my smoking table and then standed with back legs and watched over balcon fence down at the birds. and with mouth made strange sounds. all cats make similar sounds when they watch birds :D this sound maybe somehow mean they wanna attack that birds but they are not able to :D zehahaa..

now clock is 10:35. relax work day.. nothing to do. hahhaa.. if then not boss soon give some horrible work. i hope not >:D other boys repair pc's + laptops. im not needed there today.
good just. mostly the customers bring their laptops where is win 10 making some issues, and we need to fix it. there you see, w10 sucks. crashes in some moment. also customers bring laptop often by same reason. their windows 7 forces them to install w10. and they get this forcing update requestes nonstop. good my windows dont have this problems. i have stopped this w10 attacks >:D and w10 is stalker. they stalk everything you do and make raports. cant anymore do anything "bad" things :D mwhaha..

*yaaaaaawn* 

10:40 LOOOOL! whattaaaaaaaaaaaaa piiiip... my photobook came now.
the man from photo shop just brought the book here to my workplace. and i just 1-2 hour ago sent the album from pc to them by email :O  very fast work o.O
nice book and photos look nice quality in the book. book is 20x30cm big and have black soft covers. i will put photo of it later. dont have usb cable to my phone here with me now. 
mwhaha..

smoke wanting grows.. aaaaaaaaaaaaaa........   because i smoked so small cig just in 9:00 coffee pause. rolled too small + thin. but nononono must first eat before smoke. smoke taste best after food. but shshhs dont tell anyone, but when i cook food at home, i always during food making smoke half cig, then when eat, then again after food smoke. 

again this keyboard is shitten. i washed this 2-3 week ago with soap + water. but those other guys too have used this pc. much disgusting fingerprints and dust on this. yörhh..
need wash hands soon. in my home i wash my keyboard with ear swabs. i put dishwash liquid in small cup and then accurate clean all buttons and between buttons. then in end with some rag wash the keyboard. and mouse i desinfect often. i must desinfect often because my skin so weak. will come very fast eczema in inside hands if much tarantulas  öshh i mean mikrobes run on the rat. i mean the mouse.

haha.. here in workplace wall is a drawing, where a big mouse using the pc and as mouse he use a human :D human "mouse" :D

now clock is 10:49. yet 10 mins.. then eaaaaat. seriously.. this dirty keyboard disturb now. i take a rag and wash this. or i throw up soon.

i must end this text now. cuz when i wash this, maybe i press much wrong buttons and maybe this blogtext somehow deletes. i dont take risk. so. bye bye.

selkä ja jalat kippeet

hmm what language to write. difficult to decide. suomea? norsk? svenska? english?

tänää en oo töissä koska kroppa kipiänä. altså idag e æ ikje på jobb fordi kroppen e heilt ont. æ har slitt længe me venstrefot problema. d brenner under fotn spesielt om nettene , å føles rar pulse å press dær når æ sett eller går. æ tænkte d e pga korsrygg problema. kan vær at bein eller fot nerven e klemt pga ryggen. ødelagt ryggen på stø i 2011-2014 når æ løfta masse stampa. æ sku ha brukt beinkraft, men æ brukte ryggen allti direkte i løftinga :S
så nu har ryggen vært dårli fra då av. har sett mange strekkingsvideoer på youtube, å d har hjulpet en del.

igår strekka æ  vesst får masse, så beinan + ryggen e heilt kaputt nu. men underfotn føl bedre nu, plutseli :D krahaa. nååvel.. fridag fra jobb e jo heilt greit xD å så har æ fått hoste. æ drekk honningvann nu. kansje d hjælpa.  

wrahahah æ har masse problema me å skriv rætt. mange ord må æ sjække på wikipedia eller google. dær ser man at æ byinn å glømme norsken. pff... æ vil skrive på norsk å se om æ kan fortsatt norsk bedre einn engelsk, eller byinn æ å bi bedre på engelsk(?). hihi.. æ skriv vældi treigt på norsk fordi må tænke å huske ordan. vess æ nu skreiv på engelsk, hadde bloggen vorr færdi 15 min sia me 1km spam :D:D:D: må kansje byinn å skriv på norsk oftere så språket håll sæ i minnet. men på nån måte skjæmmes æ å skriv norsk fordi har ikje mange kamerata som sjønna norsk :D
ok what ever. 

hjælpa honningvannet? hostinga stoppa ser sånn ut. bra sak bra sak klapp klapp klapp klapp>:D
klokka e 8:53. brb røyk + do.

8:57 jåå skavisjjååå... må ta ut smøren å tine så æ kan snart spis brødskive.
tar nåkka 10 min at den bi myk.

mu.. musikken stoppa. kaa...ok nu verka den.

hmm ka ska æ jør idag. bi litt kjedeli når e ikje på jobb. ork ikje rydde heller når alle plassene e ont. kansje må på apotek idag. kjøpe astmamedisiner.

ebayen min va hackert. ingen passord verka uansett kor mange ganger æ prøvde. å æ fikk nåkka email å om saken at nån har prøvt på nåkka i ebay:en min. måtte uppdatere alle security tingene dær.

ute rægna d bære heiletia. høsten kom :D igår når æ sykla heim fra jobb, æ va heilt våt -.-
så ut som æ har dusja. 

ååå kort artorius kom på chatrommet mett. kriaaaak.
æ har kjent han 10 år snart, på gameranger. han e russisk, like gammel som æ. å han e vældi snill. han e en slags legend på shc community. han har laga masse nye regla på spællet, funnet ut masse interessante hemmeligheter i spællet + taktikker, så har han laga mange mappa/karta. ganske genial gutt.

igår snakka vi masse interessante saker å muliheter om framtiden min på jobb me en arbeidspsykologi. vi skulle fortsette idag men d får vente sia æ e heime idag..

æ bei vældi nysgjærri om logistikkfag. einn vess æ bi så gal at æ ska byinn å studere logistikk >:D hmmm.. bære en ting e negativ at studiepænga e vældi dårli i finland. æ bi vældi fattig student vess æ går på den. æ sa om d tel arbeidspsykologien, at om d e mulig å finne en annen vei å studere, å få annenslags (bedre)pænga. vi tænka om d einnu.
+ såklart tænka vi om andre yrke + arbeidsplass muligheter å. fordi så mange intresser træg mæ på alle veier. klar ikje å bestæmme ka æ vil. han skreiv masse opp på papir ka æ kan, å ka æ e intresert i. så ska vi tænke alt negative å positive sidene på kvær fag/yrke, å finne den mæst realistiske som æ har mulighet for. 

så sa æ tel han blantannet at æ har erfaring om fiskejobb, så sa han at her i kajaani + kainuu området e fiskeindustry å :D æ vei intresert om d å, æ vil gå å se på alle de plassene dær de jobba me fisk. å vess d muligens e nåkka jobb førr må :D men ikje nåkka sånt jobb kor æ må reingjøre eller kutte fisken. yørhh... yepp æ e pyse men ka æ kan :D
har allti følt dårli av å se nåkka fiskvoller. yöööökkk.. ok nu mösta ä matlystn.

hmm kor e katten min. brb må gå å finn.
aha.. oppe på kjøleskapet. først så æ ikje den, men så løfta ho hauet , åså så æ bære øret.
ho lika å søv dær.

mobilen har funka bra ætter når æ 2 daga sia tok simkortet ut, å satt den på plass ijen.

ask.fm har forandra sæ. nu e den stygg :( å æ mærka at folkene som æ følga dær, har svara mindre på spm nu. kansje de å hata den nye looken..
æ hata når nettsidene eller programmene forandra sæ. koffør kan de ikje vær alltid samme.
når bi vant tel nåkka, så går de å forandra alt. å føratt de jør alt meir "modern", så bi programmene/sidene tungere. funker treigere, å så går nærvene. æ syns sidene må se ænkelt å klart ut. træng ikje nåkka extra shitt. mrræyh.. 

må ta vitaminene. 1500mg fiskeolje, 175mg magnesium, 3 urticalsin tablett, 125mikrog. d-vitamin, 1 tablett melkesyre, som innehåller 10 mrd bakterie. nam nam bakterier til frokost. slurps. ok nu ska æ svælge de. sec. jååh.

nu ska æ slutt å skrive. adjø.

raining this week seem so.

brother came back from his holidays now in sunday. he was 3 months round the world trip :)
mräyh.. now i must walk or bisyckle to work from now on, cuz he "stole" the car :D

when i walked to laundry room with basket, then i had much in my mind what to write about. now i forgot all. hahaha.. (washing place is in the another building). If i had bigger bathroom, ofcourse i would buy my own washing machine. very annoying to run long stairs down and trough the yard to another building with heavy basket. then back long stairs up. then after 1 hour must again run. well.. atleast legs fitness stay good. need to think positive.

hehe.. when brother was 3 months away, and me + mother took care of his home + cat, mother little got inspired there.. she cleaned perfectly there and then bought much new materials there and constructed all kind of shelfs etc things. help help.. now there is very nice and room looks like home. brother was probably in shock when he came there. cuz we didnt tell him anything :D:D.. his bathroom.. corridor.. living room.. kitchen. every room got total new look and new things :)

mars is now going backwards (17.4 ---> 30.6), so need to be careful how we spend our energy. mars is planet of action + energy. possibly we have energy for basic things just. better focus in all necessary first, before start anything new. and soon mercury will go backwards too :S 28.4--> end of may. then our minds can become nostalgic. we would want to fix old things or projects. when mercury is going backwards, then is not good idea to start new projects, also not good idea to make important contracts with too fast decision, because brain is a bit abstracted during this season. communication between people will be abstracted and stuck in the world. can come big misunderstandings for example in media, politic.. anything. and many more things. interesting to see... also, during mercury retrograde its possible that there might pop up forgotten things or people from the past.

laundry ready after 20 min. and pork steaks are melting. in work was some soup, so i will need dinner today.. cant live long with some soup.

today was doc time clock 09:30, but 30 min before they called and canceled the time. doc was sick. 2nd time this happen now to me :D but then was another doctor last time, and another reason.

last friday we went to the gym with all workmates. was fun. but my legs are still hurt of that all training + jumping -.- i tested all kind of training tools + machines there. next time need to be little calmer and not try all 10000000 machines. just destroying the body.. au..

lol.. and when we went to the gym with cars. 1 worker sat in my.. öshshs.. i mean in brother's car, so i for fun drove very wild + speedy on the city while she sat on. she was scared :D and in gym when we was finished and we could drive home, she didnt anymore come in my car :D she said she was afraid. :D:D::D: pfff.. but i drove veeery caaaalm... + nooormaall... dont need to be afraid. now is so fun to rallydrive when all snow melted on the roads.. and when is 420hp in the car >:D

i hope polices didnt watch the road cameras, i dont want "love letters" from them.. (here is everywhere in the city cameras nowadays). i have never got any fines yet. 

my tlph act strange nowadays. its sometimes blaming that the sim card is not existing. then when i restart phone, all works normal some while. yesterday i took simcard out and put back, and sofar simcard works well. but i know soon it will start again. and some day ago when mother was calling me, suddenly during call tlph restarted by it self -.- i dont want to send phone to the maintenance, because it will take many months. and i cant live so long without phone. i will buy a new phone just when phone is totally shutting down or stops working.. ip 6 i will not buy. too big for my hands... i want to have a phone that i can use with 1 hand, without that it fall on the floor. if this one breaks, i will buy some ip 5 c or any newer version, just its the same size as this current one.

15:57 brb i go get laundry

16:02 hih..downstairs neighbour was on the stairs with her 2-3 y old son. son just layed there on the stairs and mother tried to manipulate him to come up the stairs to theirs home. and she said "come noooow. ok mommy goes home now. bye byeeee. will you live on the stairs? ok just live. mami goes home now. hei heii." everyday same problem there, when they come home, son wants to stay on the stairs and mother fighting to get him with her to home :D and then its ending in cry. (kid crying). hmhmhm.. hard life. 

and under my flat there is a dog that is alone from mornings to 10:30 pm. he/she cry and bark nonstop there. i feel so sorry for the dog. and i have called to house host about it and they have talked to the girl who lives there. and all seem to be "ok" . i dont agree. dog is like.. from 7 am? alone to 10:30 pm? cant be right. but luckily its not everyday like that, but half a week anyway.
i think the girl goes school and then evening work. cuz she is almost never home. and when she finally come home, she immidiately goes out with the dog ( i hear of door sounds), and then after 5-10 min comes back in. dog gets fresh air 5-10 mins on the day just? not fair.
why need to take a dog if dont have time for it. pfff... and in this kind of apartment house its more wrong, cuz small rooms. + the barking is disturbing neighbours. (me its not, but can disturb others). 

my work end maybe in 4th may, but im seeking for continuing. and in future im planing to go studyworking somewhere. means i will be registrated in a school, but i work in some workplace and in that way i graduate myself to a profession .its better choice for me, who hates to sit on a classroom and learn theory from morning to afternoon for 3 years. i cant that. i want to directly work and learn by practice. only problem is that i have no clue what i want to work as or graduate myself as.. so im going to some psychologys and we together figure that out. there is too many choices which i like, and cant decide just 1. :-/
busdriver? taxidriver? housebuilder? office rat? some random factoryworker? chief? astrologian? self-employed? hmmmmmmm....... and 100000000 more choices.
help help... taxdriver right now interest me most, but i cant because its a bit dangerous for a small girl, when all kind of drunkers come sit on the car. ewhh.. and im too kind girl, i cant yell to them or command :D:D:  or then i need to go some taekwondo lessons :D::D and then i would feel safe :), oki i know can drive daytimes only, then is less drunkers. but still. 
then another intress is some officeworker. sit on pc just and do things. but many officework reguest telephone work too. and im afraid to talk in tllph with strangers. i will talk wrong just and panic and etc :D:D too shy for customer service job.. when i worked 6 months in a tennishall some years ago, i was full alone there the evenings when boss left home. and i had to sit on office and do customer service, rob.. eee.. i mean receive moneys from tennisplayers, or take time booking due the telephone.. and always i messed up something cuz nervous. sddsafsdfaasdgdgf.. never again. need some work where i can work independently.

skin have been very good long times now. only little problems with hands/fingers, but other body + face is good. i noticed when eat over doses e-epa fishoil kapsules, then skin tolerate unhealthy food better. now i eat daily 1500-2000mg fish oil.
before only 500-1000mg. its not helping anything. when skin very infected, then i take even 2500-3000mg, but only for few days. idk if its dangerous if eat too long times so high doses. 

some season i tried high doses with d-vitamine (250mikrogram), because in many forums they suggested so. but for me didnt help. fish oil helps better.

ok now i wrote a long "novel" :D better end. baj bye.