good evening. or ops its morning

still dark outside. time is 9:22. but its getting ligther now. i drink black coffee because milk was gone bad. at 13:00 i must be somewhere, then after it i go buy milk + bread. i still have my christmas foods, but at mornings cant eat so heavy foods, so need bread too. my 3kg ham is half eaten. i put the rest in slices and in freezer, so its not getting bad. 2 days the ham steak was on balcony, but i dont dare to keep it dare 3rd day. ham became good (as i did it first time in my life), + other foods too became good. im proud of my self :)

christmas generally went nice and i got good presents which i get use for. not very expensive, but very useful anyway. for example i got a tools pack. good. now i dont need to borrow them from my mom anymore :D (screwdrivers with many plugs in, pliers, and so on).

father will come today or tomorrow to visit us. now its good time because youngest brother from tallinn is also here now.

its snowing outside. snowing started in christmas day. i was excited of it if we will have black christmas, but then suddenly started to snow. jeee.. i have yet not lived a black christmas in my life. atleast i cant remember a one. maybe in stockholm was black christmas when i was small. idk. but in finland + norway never had. because i have always lived enough north. kajaani is exactly in the limit where use to be snow, but if go 100km souther, then black christmas is normal. good, so i will never move souther of kajaani >:D hih.

i woke early today even i have holiday, but its because i need to wake up properly, before im able to take a shower. i really hate morning showers. water feel disgusting if blood circulation is not normal. thats why need time to wake up and get body in balance before can go in shower. its also because i always take so long + hot showers, that i feel almost sick after it. heart biting hardly and dizziness etc. high bloodpressure maybe if is long times in hot shower.

i removed the christmas calender number sticker from my kitchen window yesterday by hard work. it didnt almost get off, but then i googled little, and used soap water + cheese cutter to remove it :D took 25 mins to get it off -.- never again. if in next year they ask me to participate in christmas calender, i will politely say no. was so annoying to remove the sticker -.-...     yes, we had christmas calender system at this house. every window had to put big number sticker, and in certain day decorate the window with anything as wanted. i was number 20.

i dont yet know what i will do in the new year night. things will go impulsively just. better not do plans, because they always fail (in my case). maybe im with mom then, or then im with friends. will see. fireworks i will not buy. no money. didnt buy in last year either. but dont need to, because here in the centrum will be nice fireworks, launched by city government. i go watch them then maybe.

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also, finland will start the 100-years anniversary at 1.1.17. whole the year will be jubilee year then. and finally 100 - years in 6.12.17. i already imagine how coffee packs and stuff will wear finland flags whole the next year. kraah.

in the last month al putino said "we must analyze the 1917 happenings again properly" :D. why he tell this exactly now when finland is going to celebrate its 100-year. suspectous :D

in my craziest imagination i already fear, that putin will not give us the 100 years, but attack us before 6.12.17 :D:D:D. ahhaha.. ok better not joke and laugh, or carma will make it true :)

time is 9:43 now. 20 mins spent for this text now. help help. f6.

because need sometimes stop writing and think what to write. writing in it self goes fast ofcourse. i mean of course. i mean ofcourse. im stubborn so i write in my ways without spaces in between. many words i write together, even i know i should write them separated. but njet problem da da da problem. harashoooo. njet ponemaju i snaju. ya khochu cigaret. so baj for ever. i mean for little time. and happy last year and good easter etc if i dont anymore update this blog for this year. of me can never know. i too dont know my self. not easy to be gemini in horoscope. like 2 persons. other part want this, and second part another. hoooooooooohohoohohohoh. thats why too i dont like to do faraway plans, because i can suddenly change mind. better then go impulsively by feeling as then feel. follow intuitions then just. ascendant scorpio dont make things any easier. scorpio + gemini are full opposite to each others, so i live always like in a crossfire and have big fights inside me :D gemini is sensible, scorpio goes by emotions. aa, and because my mercury + mars is in the cancer, so more emotions controlling me. mercury is planet of communication + intelligence + business etc. and mars is planet of action and energy. mars in cancer is a bit bad , when do actions by emotions + inspirations. mräääh.. nonii, meen tupakille---->

huomenna on jouluaatto

I woke up 30 mins before alarm clock, because the hairy alarm clock with 4 legs + 1 tail decided to wake me up 05:55 or something. then at 6 i made coffee.

today is short work day, 10:45 ending. some of us will be going to eat lunch at 11 in a restaurant that is in the another side of city. because lunch at downstairs is not available for us today, there is some event for other ppl, so we cant go there.

after lunch i will buy the last things from the store, then start to cook some christmas food stuff. (first time in my life i do my own christmas foods, help help.. ) :D. because we meet with family 25th dec, so 24th i will be alone. or almost alone, little brother will come to me tomorrow evening. some of family members are busy 24th, thats why we move the celebration to next day.

first i protested for this, that are we reallllly going to move the christmas eve to next day, but now its fine, because bro will come to me :). dont need to be full alone.

this year christmas i even sent cards to few ppl :) 

difficult to focus in this writing because ugly music playing of speakers. and 1 of speaker is 1 m near me. arrrhh.. some awkward and ugly christmas songs. i like old traditional christmas songs better than some modern sabotaged shitt songs, and the singers doesnt even have beautiful voice.

hmmmmsss hmm..

what will i write now. my life is so calm and boring that there is nothing interesting to tell. hmmmmmmmmmmmm. also im shy to write too random things. 1 year ago i was more brave. i want back that feeling, to just write anything and not shame.

ok i try. 

jåååh.. more money came today. need to pay rent soon when inspiration comes. nowadays i pay bills with phone just, because in pc if pay, need to use annoying key lists. in phone i have applications for it, just 1-2 click and done.

water bill came yesterday, and the due date is 30.12. really? they couldnt send the bill little earlier? now is no time to prepare for pay it.. goes to next month. but np, they will not blame if pay it little late.

yesterday happened a small accident with my computer. i explained about it already in instagram but i explain again because i want to write something to spend this work day faster :D so. in morning when i drank coffee and read news as usual, then my cat messed around there and here and ran like crazy, and in 1 moment ran and crashed at my pc :O
fool cat.. and pc shaked a lot ofcourse. pc then restarted it self and went in windows recovery error mode, where need to choose if go to safe mode or directly to windows. i couldnt even press anything, keyboard didnt work. then it automatically after 20 sec went to windows. but never launched to windows, but went in some black screen just and pc was thinking there long times. i shut down pc and checked that all wires are connected. then launched pc again, again same thing, black screen and not going to windows.
then i shut down pc again and took wires of hard discs and connected again. and pc on. no result. then the time was already too much, had to go to work. i quickly just took both hard discs off and put them in my backpack and walked to work with them, then i tested hdd's here in workplace in any random pc. hard discs worked normal. then i asked if someone of work mates can drive me to my home so that i catch my computer with me. then i got someone to drive and we got pc here. then we deep cleaned with with air pressure tools + vacuumcleaner and put hdd's on place. and launched pc. worked normal o.O
then rest of the day i used my pc here at work :D shhhhshsh.. dont tell anyone, but i played games just and read news and relaxed just :))  because here was nothing else to do..

i sent email to school few days ago. because i need answers to some questions.
i first analyze all possible things, before i decide if i want to go study there or not :P

its ict-sector im interested of. the ict sector was before it-sector, but its changed to ict-sector nowdays. there is more electricity missions, than was before. i tried IT-sector in 2005, but then i was young and fool + restless, so i found it too boring, so i jumped to business administration sector, and was there 6 months, but i left it too. then was problems with eczema, that i had to leave. now im ready to try school again, when health is again in somehow control + more stabler than 10 y ago. anyway im not interested to continue the business sector where i left it, i like more to do things with pc, so i want to head to it-sector. + because i already know so much basics about computers, so it would be easy start for me there. also for my own good, i want to become better with computer. a freak >:D
and then i will hack everyone and etc. ok joke joke xD

huomenta

piti just hakia ruokalippu tuolta infosta, ku 11 aikkaa me saahaan ilmanen jouluruoka tuolla alakerran syöttölässä. kahvitauon jäläkkee lähen cittariin ostammaa ruokkaa tuonne kanttiinaan. ne laittaa aina minut ostoksille ku oon kokenu ja ollu kauan jo tässä talossa.

en pysty enää autolla ajaa ku silmälasit on hukassa :-/ kämppä on käännetty ylösalaisin muutaman kerran eikä löydy. varmasti tippunu johonki kadulle tai jonnekki. vois ehkä poliisiasemaltaki käyä kyselemässä. jos jaksan, nii heti töitten jälkee. nyt ku oon pyörällä liikenteessä. tulin siks pyörällä ku meinasin myöhästyä, ei ois mitenkää kävellen kerinny ajoissa. yleensä näin talvella tykkään mielummin kävellä. ku pyöräs meinaa jarrut jäätyä ja vaihteet jos kovat pakkaset, nii ei voi ees ajaa sillä.

oon miettiny et jos lähtis opiskelee. ICT-asentajaksi. tutkinu + miettiny 2 viikkoo nyt. vielä on epäselvää et pääseekö sinne aikuispuolen kautta. vai pitääkö mennä niitten teinien sekaan opiskelee ensi syksynä. anyway pitäs kohta tietää varmaksi et haluunko opiskelee, koska yhteishaku on keväällä. ja jos aikuispuoli, nii eikös niillä ala jo tammikuussa :S. kiire tullee..

laitoin eilen joulukoristeet. vihdoinki. pitäs viel käyä tokmannista ostaa toinen ledivalo-sarja ja sit tarvin 3m pitkän jatkoroikan. sitte pitäs imuroija kämppä. en oo jaksanu pitkää aikaa imuroija. vähä muut asiat kiinnostanu viime aikoina, nii ei oo ollu "aikaa" siivota :D

huomenna mennää joutenlammelle syömään. ensi on se leffa, mut otin vapauden siitä tietystä syystä, nii meen suoraan vaa linkkuun sit ja ootan niitä muita et ne tullee sieltä leffasta. nii ja huomenna loppuu jo aikasemmin. yeah..

kauhia ku tärissee oikea käsi. nälkä on. söin vaa jotai ananasta aamupalaksi purkista :D ja 2 kuppia kahavia. ei maistu leipä niin aikaisin aamulla. yök.

3D-tulostin tulostaa tossa vieressä ja tekee kummallisia ufo ääniä. se tekkee piparimuotteja.
tai ainakin yrittää tehä :D ku tuossa tulostimessa on ollu paljon ongelmia.

stressaa ku pitäs joululahjojaki ostaa. ei oo rahhaa oikee.. no jotain halpaa voi ostaa.
en kyl tiiä yhtää et mitä ostan kellekki. ja ostan vaa omille perheenjäsenille. kaverit ei oota lahjoja, ku osa niistä itekkää ei aijo ostaa. hyvä vaa nii säästyy rahaa.

mummolle pitäs stevia suklaata löytää tuolta cittarista, äiti aikoo lähettää sille. yritin jo eilen löytää mut en nähny missää. pitäs varmaa kysyä henkilökunnalta että missä ne on.
kiire ois löytää koska pitäs keretä lähettää ruotsiin ne. hmm pitäs kortti ostaa myös.
meinasin ensin että poltan musiikkia cd-levylle ja lähetän mummolle, mut varmaan se idea jää nyt. tai en tiiä. pitää kattoa.

ärsyttää ku ykski tyyppi kokoaja harvemmin ja harvemmin tulee onlineen. vissii kiireinen elämä. ja jos ymmärsin oikein, nii se opiskelee vielä työn lisäksi. huoh -.-
tylsäksi menny koko juttu. en tiiä mitä tekis. ehkä parempi vaa unohtaa se nyt lopullisesti.
(helpommin sanottu ku tehty).

joo-o. ei kiinnosta kirjottaa enempää. mräyhh. pitää käydä vessassa ja sit kääriä rööki. kohta on kahvitauko.

now i will read this text in english at google translator, and laugh my self to death :D
#silly :)

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my dialect words: (first word is my dialect, second is correct)

ku, koska = because, than, when
kämppä= flat
jäläkkee, jälkeen= after
aikkaa, aikaan= time
saahaan, saadaan= get
pitäs, pitäisi= have to
hyvä vaa= its only good
tullee, tulee= coming
tekkee, tekee= making
imuroija, imuroida= vacuumclean
käyä, käydä= visit
et, että= that. but että can be used in other cases too, which need different kind english word/sentence
nii, niin= so
oo, ole= is, have, staying ---> ei oo= dont have, is not. do you have smoke? - ei oo, dont have. is the cat under bed? - ei oo, is not. --> oo siinä= stay there.
meen, menen= going
rahhaa, rahaa=money
ois, olisi= would be
tiiä, tiedä= know
sit, sitten= then
oon, olen= i am
ees, edes= even
tärissee, tärisee= shaking
mut, mutta= but
ykski, yksikin= that (one)
siks, siksi= therefor, thats why, in some case "because"
mennää, mennään= we go
jos= if
ootan, odotan= im waiting
just, justiin, justiinsa,= just, atm, right now, freshly, exactly, right, only, (just have many meanings)..
juuri is family to word just.
juuri= same as just, but juuri also means root.
punajuuri= beetroot
puna, punainen= red
hakia, hakea= to get
piti= had to
tuolta= from there, beyond there
tuolla= there (further away)
tuossa= there (closer away, intensive)
tässä= right here (very close, more intensive, detailed)
täällä= here

mää, mä, mie, minä, = I, me
sää, sä, nää, nä, sie, sinä= you (1 person)
te= you (all), or if talk to elderly/respectful person then its polite to say te.
pijä, pidä= keep, hold. --> ei se pijä paikkaasa, ei se pidä paikkaansa= its not holding the place (its not true).
ookko, ootko, oot, oletko= do (you), are (you)
oonko, olenko= am I    (not always necessary to use I (minä) word if feel lazy, will be understood, because oonko, olenko already is talking about "me").

(oonko tyhmä= am i stupid,
oonko mää tyhmä= am i stupid)   both choices are ok.

ookkonää tyhymä?= are you stupid?
oletko sinä tyhmä?= -||-
oot sie tyhmä?
ootko sää tyhmä?

same thing with ootko,oot, oletko, ookko. can  use alone like that without using you word, if want to talk in simple/lazy way. because actually "oot, olet" beginning already is talking about you(1 person).

if want to talk to "you all" or respectful human, then words become longer:
ootteko, oletteko, oletteko te = are you(all)


pöljä, hölmö= fool
vammane, vammainen= retard, handicapped
kusipää= pisshead (bastard, cunt, twat)
paskiainen= shitthead or smth :D

stronger ugly words i will not teach.. :D


ok finnish dialect lesson is over for today. the teacher will be busy with another things now.
have a nice day. hyvää päivän jatkoa!  jatkoa= continuation

hui hai

i skip work today because allergy reaction in face + eyes :-/ idk what happens to me. could it be stem renu which i react to? because i have not eaten anything unhealthy in few days etc.
i will keep pause of stem renu pills for few days and start again when feel good.

in evening is housewarming "party" at marika's new home, i maybe go there. if i feel better in my face :D eyes looks like shit -.- need to avoid salted food today and drink a lot of water so swelling around eyes  and redness + burning in face calms down. in front neck is nice soar because scratched it to bloods during sleeping. i slept balcony door little bit open last night because was so warm here. its some 0 c outside. been for 1-2 days. snows are melting..  i need a shovel because its annoying how its snowing directly to my balcony. i hope they melt away now because soon will come cold again. looked for a  small metal shovel from shop yesterday but didnt find. there was only big ones. hm.

maybe at benzine stations they sell mini shovels. that kind what you can have in a car. small metal one. im spending this morning by watching youtube videos just. and drank 2 cup of coffee. coffee smoke coffee smoke. maybe need to do something sensible too. clean kitchen or smth. there are much dirty dishes :D need put them in machine. 

ios 10.1.1 sucks. why did i install it -.- older ios was better.

time is 9:41. i continue this text later. because nothing more to say right now.

9:47 dishes in machine now. need to wash 2 rounds because was not space for all. cooking pan's take all space -.- im envious to them who have normal big machine. i have only the half size :D but no space in kitchen for big one. so need to be happy that even have some kind of machine. and dont need to wash with hands and get poisoned of liquid soap. when i washed dishes, the soap liquid fog came up to face and made much itching + ofcourse hands itched and dryed too. no matter if used gloves, hands itched still. happy that that times are history..  ye, marika and bf found new home now in a good place. (funny place), but nothing more about that :D:D: because dangerous if some certain ppl read this text so i dont want to make problem :D

i have strange economic situation now because i got double benefit money for same month, and because i want to be honest, so i of course called there and asked how come i got so much money, and how did they calculate it etc. but the woman said all is correct and calculated right, and i claimed with her many mins and explained my last month incomings, etc + coming incomings + she knew too, how much i got and will get in next months, still she said all is right. i dont understand at all. now i have 500e extra even i feel its not right. im afraid to spend that 500e, so i moved them in safe and i will try to claim about it again in january + reguest them to check calculations if it still looks weird how i have so much money. lol.. if in january they still say that its correct, then i will go shoppiiiing :D but im 90% sure something is not right. better let the time go and see what happens.

mm.. ye. i go to smoke because so warm here. and then i continue with youtube videos. addicted.com.