good evening. or ops its morning

still dark outside. time is 9:22. but its getting ligther now. i drink black coffee because milk was gone bad. at 13:00 i must be somewhere, then after it i go buy milk + bread. i still have my christmas foods, but at mornings cant eat so heavy foods, so need bread too. my 3kg ham is half eaten. i put the rest in slices and in freezer, so its not getting bad. 2 days the ham steak was on balcony, but i dont dare to keep it dare 3rd day. ham became good (as i did it first time in my life), + other foods too became good. im proud of my self :)

christmas generally went nice and i got good presents which i get use for. not very expensive, but very useful anyway. for example i got a tools pack. good. now i dont need to borrow them from my mom anymore :D (screwdrivers with many plugs in, pliers, and so on).

father will come today or tomorrow to visit us. now its good time because youngest brother from tallinn is also here now.

its snowing outside. snowing started in christmas day. i was excited of it if we will have black christmas, but then suddenly started to snow. jeee.. i have yet not lived a black christmas in my life. atleast i cant remember a one. maybe in stockholm was black christmas when i was small. idk. but in finland + norway never had. because i have always lived enough north. kajaani is exactly in the limit where use to be snow, but if go 100km souther, then black christmas is normal. good, so i will never move souther of kajaani >:D hih.

i woke early today even i have holiday, but its because i need to wake up properly, before im able to take a shower. i really hate morning showers. water feel disgusting if blood circulation is not normal. thats why need time to wake up and get body in balance before can go in shower. its also because i always take so long + hot showers, that i feel almost sick after it. heart biting hardly and dizziness etc. high bloodpressure maybe if is long times in hot shower.

i removed the christmas calender number sticker from my kitchen window yesterday by hard work. it didnt almost get off, but then i googled little, and used soap water + cheese cutter to remove it :D took 25 mins to get it off -.- never again. if in next year they ask me to participate in christmas calender, i will politely say no. was so annoying to remove the sticker -.-...     yes, we had christmas calender system at this house. every window had to put big number sticker, and in certain day decorate the window with anything as wanted. i was number 20.

i dont yet know what i will do in the new year night. things will go impulsively just. better not do plans, because they always fail (in my case). maybe im with mom then, or then im with friends. will see. fireworks i will not buy. no money. didnt buy in last year either. but dont need to, because here in the centrum will be nice fireworks, launched by city government. i go watch them then maybe.

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also, finland will start the 100-years anniversary at 1.1.17. whole the year will be jubilee year then. and finally 100 - years in 6.12.17. i already imagine how coffee packs and stuff will wear finland flags whole the next year. kraah.

in the last month al putino said "we must analyze the 1917 happenings again properly" :D. why he tell this exactly now when finland is going to celebrate its 100-year. suspectous :D

in my craziest imagination i already fear, that putin will not give us the 100 years, but attack us before 6.12.17 :D:D:D. ahhaha.. ok better not joke and laugh, or carma will make it true :)

time is 9:43 now. 20 mins spent for this text now. help help. f6.

because need sometimes stop writing and think what to write. writing in it self goes fast ofcourse. i mean of course. i mean ofcourse. im stubborn so i write in my ways without spaces in between. many words i write together, even i know i should write them separated. but njet problem da da da problem. harashoooo. njet ponemaju i snaju. ya khochu cigaret. so baj for ever. i mean for little time. and happy last year and good easter etc if i dont anymore update this blog for this year. of me can never know. i too dont know my self. not easy to be gemini in horoscope. like 2 persons. other part want this, and second part another. hoooooooooohohoohohohoh. thats why too i dont like to do faraway plans, because i can suddenly change mind. better then go impulsively by feeling as then feel. follow intuitions then just. ascendant scorpio dont make things any easier. scorpio + gemini are full opposite to each others, so i live always like in a crossfire and have big fights inside me :D gemini is sensible, scorpio goes by emotions. aa, and because my mercury + mars is in the cancer, so more emotions controlling me. mercury is planet of communication + intelligence + business etc. and mars is planet of action and energy. mars in cancer is a bit bad , when do actions by emotions + inspirations. mräääh.. nonii, meen tupakille---->