need somehow spend time. boss left to another city and left us alone. and didnt give us any work. so we just do what want. 1 man fixed computers, but we others have nothing to do.
Ok, let's try to write nicer now. :'D. Let's act like I'm a virgo in horoscope. (yörhh).
Again I slept bad last night. Falled asleep at 00:00, or something, then I woke up 4 am, and didn't get anymore sleep. Just layed there eyes closed until alarm clock screamed to me 6:45. Yes now a days I put alarm to 6:45, because I noticed I still have time for a cup of coffee and small surfing moment in internet. (before I put 6:30), but I want to sleep longer now. Nah, this "perfect style" typing is irritating. Takes longer time to type.
this relax writing style is better. dont need to think what write, jsut let fingers write any random just and blalbblablalba bjoojgdwejokgpåkgpårkgpåkgkpågkåå.
feels so freedom and so on. and no stress. maybe for others hard to read then :D
but daaaa njet da njet problem.
printer do its work. 1 guy printing somethings. should i also print something? print random spid..eeee i mean cat photos from google. and then throw them to trash right after. hahahahaha. ok now im strange. idk why i cant sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.
i took 25 drops some good night ( i almost wrote good bye xD ) herb, which will make good sleep. and yes it effect and make sleepy + zombie, but i still dont get enough sleep. wake up in lol times and etc. whats wrong with meee.. im not thinking anything negative even when sleep. just normal random world/life things and then i try to empty my mind for get sleep. and then finally get, but why wake up after few hours? and not get anymore sleep? then i run 2-3 times nervous smoke at balcon. and then when lay 2-3 hours eyes closed, then comes hunger. and who idiot has energy to cook any food in 5am? and some dry and boring bread dont taste in that clock time. muuuh.. my brain dont get enouigh serotonin or smth. even i eat foods + stuff where get it. maybe i have adhd then, which launches in night when need to sleep :D
ouuhh.. left hand shake. maybe rheumatism also launched now :D all normal in this age.
but seriously. my right hand shake sometimes. started in 12 age. when hold smoke in mouth, hand can little shake. or when hold a pen or a fork in air up from table, then can shake. and if im hungry, then shake stronger. i asked this from doctor when visited there for another reason, he said if nothing is hurt or disturbing in hand moving, then its just some random not harmful thing in nerves. idk. he didnt much care and explain. but i want to know more. + fix it if possible.
i have googled many years about it, and found nothing else than possible
Essential Tremor diagnose. but my hand shake very little just, not in too distubring way. and when i focus with hand and do something, shaking stops. only shake when tense hand in air. now both hands shake :D its because hungry. lunch soon after 30 mins.
yaaawnn... kello is 10:25. i mean clock.
hands skin is or are dr dr dr dr dryed. ( i still want to say dry.) and not dryed like 1 ufo is trying to force me to. forgot to put creme in morning. i was so sleepy + in a hurry when came to work. np. im not saying hand hello to anyone anyway so. xD
and if need show hands, can hide them inside shirt sleeve. this sleeve word i had to translated. never heard it before -.- everyday i learn maybe 1 new english word. buuuh..
life is school for ever.
10:29 now i sit and bend vs hand. and think what to write. hmmm.... hmmssss...
10:30 sun moved to cancer yesterday.
here is so silent. 5 guy here and we all sit mouse silent just :D no music no nothing. only hear typing or click click click sounds :D ops.. actually im only one who type here. now i little shame if im bothering their concentration when i type much and whole the time :D
now im afraid to type at all. if all listen my typing :D hahahahah...awkwaaaard....
i try to type slower + quietly now :D
5 introverts in same room. not good. need even 1 extrovert here to keep some noise.
:))))
and i hope they never find my blog. then i will die of shame :D
maybe i download gameranger to this pc. (and delete it when leave home).
need to stalk who ppl online. and maybe chat with them. ok sec. 10:35
10:36 flash player needed. arghh...
10:37 installing it. and annoying because 1 guy spam all the time in fb. hi what you do. hi how are you. hi hi hi. why you dont answer. hi. halooo. grrrrrrrr. i want to say to him GET LOST. but i dont dare to. i just ignore and answer sometimes. i dont usually get annoyed of spam, but depends little on who is spamming. if some awkward ppl, then annoying.
10:39 ujeee now im logged in to gameranger. *yaaawn*
10:41 what if i were so crazy that i download shc too :D can never know of me. xD
( i too dont know my self 100%). geminis are so complicated persons + unexpected/capricous :))))))))))). so need to be careful with them. i also must be careful with my self. because i have like.. 2 persons in me. often i fight vs other part of me. other say yes to something, other say no. or then i often can think from 2 sides. i often understand racist ppl, but i also understand antiracists. same in politic things, i can think from both opponents opinion. and therefor i have problem to decide who has right, cuz i feel both are right.
well ok, i dont know if this feature comes of gemini character, or smth else.
thats why i mostly be quiet when 2 ppl fight about something, because i understand + feel them both. if i sometimes open mouth, then i soon regret because my other part think different. in crossfire :D. only sometimes in strange mood or days i can hardly fight for 1 opinion and be stubborn about it. but then after some days i shame + regret. annoying. then is just best choice to shut up and not say anything and let others fight.
can be this also because my moon is in libra. i seek balance in everything. and hate to fight. and want to be diplomatic. and want to be friendly to anything + everyone. and good behaviour.
ihim. so much spamming. shameeee on meeee. maybe i should delete this blog. i fool my self just here. ok i got some low self-esteem attack now :D skrääääk.
but i like to write public diary. its fun to read after 29 years when old grandmother.
and they stay safe in internet. if save in own computer, they can disappear somehwere, if suddenly come tornado or tsunami or meteorit to house and kabummmm pc explode or grow a legs and walk its way to honolulu when im not home, and so on. reasons are many.
and because here can put photos of moments/situations. in notepad diary cant put. so its boring. and sure i sometimes write diary in a small book, there i write more emotional things and deep things which i dont dare to write in public :D
jååh.. need to roll a smoke now. lunch start soon.
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