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not in work today because insomnia problems. slept maybe 1-2 hours last night. cat disturbed me by playing like crazy around here in room, and then teen boys disturbed me with their motorbikes. they have specially tuned their bikes that they sound very loudy + ugly, and because they have summer vacation now, they drive around streets in night time.
in summer this is hard because window/door is open (too hot in room), then the trafic sounds are too big. grrr..  i have ear plugs, but they dont stay long in my ears :D they always jump out :(. and i have tried different kind of plugs. always result same, they dont stay. maybe my ears too small then :D idk. and one time when i got them stay, i still hear all noise trough them. not helping much.

to car noises i dont so much loose nervous, but those tuned motorbikes. aaaaaaaasdgsdggsd... 

i tried little to sleep now but impossible sleep in daytime. + there is renovation in downstairs.
try then to sleep when hear bank bank bank bank trrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr bank bank bank sounds. go ahead. try.

so, better sit here like zombie and try somehow stay awake to the next night.

mm and now is fullmoon too. maybe thats also effecting. i have before also noticed that i cant sleep in fullmoon times. then is somehow more restless and react more for things that happen around. 

i just ate breakfast xD and its 13:38. 
2 toasted ryebread, 3 egg yolk. i eat only egg yolk because i think that in that white part is only the waste products of the chicken. in english, all shitts. yolk is the healthiest part. this i do when i boil the eggs, eat the yolk only. but when i fry in a pan, then i eat all.

how i get the yolk nicely out of egg without breaking it? - i make with my thumb nail ca. 3-4 mm deep scar around the half egg. then i carefully open the egg white off it. and tadaaaa, i get the whole round yolk nicely out of egg, then put salt or herbsalt and njams njams.

when eat 3 or 4 of those, hunger keeps long away.

13:43 brb smoke

13:46 aaa i dont see anything. so sunny was outside that i feel blind when come in to room.
maybe i go soon sit to balcon longer time, to get some d-vitamine.

gameranger acted strange yesterday, couldnt log in without vpn. today all work normal suddenly again. maybe some problems with servers. dunno.
i was nervous yesterday and uninstalled all lately installed programs, tested if they made some issues but nah. i remember 1 guy had this problem, he couldnt open any room in gameranger or host game, then i many hours tried to fix it with him, and finally we found that some lately installed program made issues with gameranger. dont remember what program it was, but anyway. i think it was some type of photoshop program. with the photoshop came some extra shitt programs, which made conflict with gameranger. and sometimes "wrong" type of antivirus can make conflicts. for example avira.

i need someday bring my computer to my workplace, and let the boys look whats the problem with the front case fan. the fan is sometimes running slowly, and sometimes suddenly stops running. weird with the thing is, that when i reboot computer, fan run normal fast. then after 1 hour or some fan begin to act strange. i have looked the fan if there is dust or something that avoid it of running, and vacuumcleaned it, but the propeller seem to spin normal. and spin normal when reboot pc. need to take it out and look closer, but its in very difficult place in front case, cant get access to it. need to remove all hard drive statives and all away first. and emoboard. im afraid to remove all, if i dont then get them back again :D so its better someone professional do it. + i dont have enough tools for it. there need some special screwdriver which i dont have. some very small cube screwdriver. i have only bigger ones. i shut pc off when im sleeping or when im not home, because im paranoid if the fan can get in fire or smth, if something is wrong with it. and then when i come home, here is only ash instead of home xD black empty room full of ash and smoke. jåååh..

1 of my biggest nightmares, that my home burn. i always take almost all cables off when i leave home. and i check many times that the stove and coffeemachine is surely turned off.
also i never leave any easy burning things upon stove, because im paranoid if the stove for mystical reason launch it self and then whole house burn :D 
tlph charger also i take always off when not using. i have heard too many horror stories how they can suddenly explode and etc.

this workweek ends in thursday. friday is free because midsummer celebration in finland.
next monday work continues normal to the end of june. then starts summer vacation. 3 weeks long vacation i will have. last week of july work continues again. i hope is good weathers in july then. i want go much out. (well.. who doesnt want to..) .

14:01 candy tiiime. (vitamines).

i see in some moments stars around me. cuz so tired. head lags -.-

jeeh.. i think i go host a room in gameranger and try to get some game. later need shower and market. dont have anything to eat for evening. or if feel too tired to go to shop, can eat the cat. make soup of it. but hmm i dont have any carrots or potatoes. will become boring soup then. so no, better go to shop just. can eat the cat in christmas then. (if no money to buy christmas ham). oo.. not long to christmas. and it just was. idk how time fly so fast.
sometimes feels like our life is being rewinded faster like in a video tape. still can remember some things like yesterday. even its long time ago. and year by year seriously feel like that everything goes faster faster faster. ok im tired so i talk psycho things. better go play now :D:D