good morning

time is 7:56 and im here at work. yesterday i was not at work because skin was hurt and horrible. almost didnt come today too, but then i should go to doctor, and its too hard work to go sit there all the day, they would send me from doctor to another and waiting waiting... so better come to work and try survive. backpack is full of things which i can need, to calm itching or fix skin :D if need suddenly go wash face, neck... etc
back neck and front neck are in worst condition, dryed skin and big soars. nam nam.
and i cant put any creme there, because will itch only more and then i scratch more to bloods. need be careful today that i dont sweat, sweating make itch more just.
eyes area also dry, but i can control it with creme and need wash face often and put new creme. here in work place is extra dry air, and hot air, so its little difficult this life -.-

this problem came in last weekend, because i ate pizza and very big chilichips bag which have much paprika spice, and im sure its the paprika spice that put this skin in this condition. because happened many times before. before. but how can control and eat just half bag, and save rest to late times? next time need buy smaller bag then.. skriaaah..

workplace boss said he can give 3 days free only if reason is cold/flu or stomach illness, but of skin problems he cant, some new rules. i must go to doctor by my self ,if i need free.
yesterday he marked day as a "work day", because i came to work to visit and show skin :D
so i didnt go to doctor then. but next time need.

i took ~2000mg fish oil, usually i take 2x 650mg. when is infection or sickness, then i take bigger dose.

hoppodihoiii... time is 8:08 now. should start work. but nooo stress no stress. now must not stress.

i have in last days seen strange dreams. maybe i start to write them up in my dream book.. but i will forget this idea after 5 min. and for ever. so gg. or, not for ever. 

hahaa 1 guy whom i avoid, is still not here at work. i hope he quitted. or then he is taking longer vacation and come later in august. aaaa.. plz dont comee..

why am i like this, when some guy show interess and flirt, i become anguished and ignore and avoid him, and act like.. angry near him. o.O before when i didnt know him, i could easily go sit in the same table to drink morning coffee, and no problems. then when he started to flirt and took contact in social media places, i went always to another table after it :D and walk quickly past him when i walk somewhere :D i somehow in this way try to give him signals that he dont have a chance on me, maybe :D also i noticed i feel tensed near him. and shy. i cant even watch to him in eyes anymore, but i watch somewhere past him or to another direction :D. good he is not a smoker, so i have no panic in the smoking place. if he would come there too and stress me :D if he was a smoker, i would be afraid to go in same time to smoke, and in that way i would stop smoking. ahhahaa... 

the funniest part is, that he already has a gf. and that girl is like a barbie, very pretty. so i dont understand what he see in me -.- pfff. im just boring grey mouse.

ok aaameeen. sec need drink water. gluuug glug glug glug. nam.
water is always tasty. even it dont taste anything much but stll.

airfan blow towards me, and my hair fly there and here and hit face and then face itch. just 1 hair if touch cheek, then itch much. so sensitive skin is now. but if i close the fan, then i sweat here. 

i need to buy a new backpack soon very soon. but no money for a new one..they cost 50 euro maybe as new. i will look from second hand if thre is any good condition backpacks. my black beckham backpack is ripped on the top. i dont need to open the zipper anymore, can put things or take things from the ripped hole jsut :D:D:D  in emergency i just put some safety pin to keep it somehow closed :D so that all world ppl dont directly see what i have in it :D

this mouse cursor lags. jumps everywhere how it want. and sometimes when i surf and read something on internet, page jump down up down up by it self even i dont touch mouse.
windows 10, tsk tsk :)) . ok idk if its windows 10 fault, but i like to blame it is. because im windows 7 fan :)

and in win 10 gameranger window is uglier and bigger. when someone join gameranger or exit, and i get message in down right corner near the clock, the window is very big and waste space of screen, and very annoying. in win 7 its smaller and not so irritating.

in my home yard is a renovation going on. they have dug all grass away from the ground, and they put some watertubes there. and i dont know if they will build something upon ground too. well.. will see..

oki gtg. cya