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hatsiuh tsiuh. and etc.

i want fast home just from here. because want continue my dear hobby :))))))))))))))))))).
tiiime go faster jalla jalla fast plis. quick quick. im in very creative mood. any serious life things dont interess at all just now. 

hohhohoo... yesterday i started to write novell again. but i wrote just 3-4 page (a4). "just". :P
then came other disturbings so had to stop. + night came too fast and had to go sleep. muuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu. i need more time in this daily days. why need to work and why need to go early sleep. boring. maybe i will take nervous vacation? xD
go to doctor and lie i a psychopat and i have ebola and sars and catflu and fishflu and this and that + yy zeta åå ää öö abcsdegdfhgjjfhgjkfhgjkhjkfdhgkjfdhkjg bla bla so i get vacation.

but meiiibi not. now need to calm down. im almost 30 and acting like 12 jeee no brain jee jeeee. im still in shock of that new where some russian man will change his head to other body. :S i dont believe it will work. or if work, he will be some half retard rest of life.
and then when i imagine in mind how they cut his head of and all bloodwires and nervous wires just hang there and aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa  .. sec need throw up. yöööörghhhh.
huh.. ok it helped. btw today morning i almost yörghhh because tipsu suddenly just threw up in her food bowl upon her foods :o. then i went fast with papers to clean it, but the smell yöögh. in stomach started to spin so i fast went to balcony to get fresh air and had to sit there 1-2 mins :D in mornings i have weak stomach. she dont seem to tolerate the new dry foods i bought to her. hmhmh.

i didnt go to group meeting yesterday. felt so tired + hungry and all possible problems.
just sent them sms  "Hi. After all I cant come to the group meeting because I dont feel well. I try next tuesday again. R: my name." 

and they answered ok. jååh..

what if i dont go in next tuesday either. hihihi... somehow i feel noob and looser if must go in that kind of shitts. but in other part of me im curious how there is. how they ppl there are and what they talk about :D

today after work when i go home to rest 1-2 h, and eat, then me + workmate go to car workshops to ask if they have time to take bro's car and fix it. i dont know where these workshops here in kajaani are, and my workmate know, so better go with him.
+ anyway i need ride. cant walk/sycle 10km there & here in rain + because bad fitness and astma :D but now my legs fitness is better. feels nowhere to sycle uphill. but if tight uphill, then sure loose breath and need take medicine.

lol. how my boss laughed..  he laughed like some troll. krööh.. goood luck.

now again. lol.

today is some sausage food. yörgh. potato mash + sausages. but i know their sausages, so i know i will not like. i will eat the potatomash just + salat. then need eat heavy food again at home. to survive this life. shit.. all meats are in freezer. so it be late evening before i get food again. maybe need buy some quickfood for worst hunger, like babyfood :D
babyfood because its normal food + is cheap, + it kill worst hunger very well. and is easy to eat. and i dont want to eat bread for ever. stomach dont like if eat bread nonstop.
or, depends what bread eat. ryebread i cant eat now cuz bored. and bloodsugar maybe damaged cuz only white bread tastes now. so, njet harashoo.

right hand shake much. strange. maybe i took too less magnesium then. only 50mg. i mean mikrogramm. µg. but im hungry too. so it too effect for shaking. 

now to lunch. after lunch i have future plan interview with boss.


11:21 mjåååh.. 1 other guy went to interview. then im next. help help.

cousin has birthday today., need remember to send sms to her. she is same old as me.
some week ago she said she maybe come to kajaani to visit me, but now i have heard nothing. maybe busy life. my 1 year younger bro also so busy nowadays, i havent seen him for looong time. few months :O sec need try to remember..atleast in my birthday last time. dont remember if after it.

and father i have not met in half year maybe :D nice family i have. but its good internet exists. eldst brother ihave not met in few years. last time when he + his family visited us here in finland few summer ago.

nothing work to do here today seem so. i only surf around internet just. those other guys fix computers, so no space for me there.