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today last day here in work. in monday i start another work. hihiii... im excited.
in last week of october i have autumn vacation. its just 1 week long.

proprio..  later today maybe 1 friend come to me and we maybe make some food and just chill. if i have the mood, or if i want to be alone. we will see. of us ambiverts can never know if want be social or hermit. or idk. some days im more introvert than ambivert. and veeery rarely extrovert. cat humans usually are introverts or ambiverts. dog humans ambiverts or extroverts. this is only my own observation and theory just. as i have analyzed ppl around me.. in my mind i see a extrovert human like a dog with open mouth and tongue long out and breathing heavily + happilly and very social and attacking everyone :D ahhahaha... and cat humans very o.O faced, scary and careful and reserved. and ready to hide when even little bit dangerous atmosphere. etc. and shy with new humans. tipsu go always behind sofa when some guests come. but if she recognize its some known human, she come out behind sofa and go say hello to guest. but when many guest come at same time. then she stays very long time hidden. afraid of so many talking and laughing voices. manytimes i see she copy me :D is in similar way shy and reserved. what kind pet, that kind owner.. or other way. isnt it usually so. 

yesterday i was again on neurosonic/massage chair. i almost fall asleep in it :P
also i got again a (acupuncture) magnet behind left ear. first 2 hours i felt sad + gloomy and negative. digged up old things from mind, what some ppl said then and then, and this made me mad almost. last time too the magnet did same reactions. but then after longer time it calm just and avoid stress. last time when i had the magnet, it left off in 5th day. was purpose to keep it 7 days. interesting how many days it stay now then. in shower need be careful when wash behind ears.

nights + mornings are very cold nowadays, minus celsius. if in night is more than -2c, i cover flowers with newspapers. so they dont die. still not dead.

yesterday when i came home from work, in my room was a renovation man painting walls around windows :P. still i dont know when they will put the ledges. i have waited 2 weeks now and room is because of that in chaos cuz all things are moved away from window. mrääh...

inside my left thumb between index finger is nice long thin scar now. because i burned it last sunday when took pizza out from oven. i used oven mitt ofcourse, but problem was, the oven mitt was wet. so heat of oven immediately took on the water and made it burning hot and aa my fingers :D right hand fingers also burned, but not so strongly as left thumb. i kept it in cold water but it didnt help. then i looked help from google + asked from gameranger friends. one told me to put toothpaste. it helped 80% but little burned still trought it. then other guy said i must put thumb in flours :D i was first like.. he joke? :D. but then i googled it and there too was stories about it, how in vietnam war some soldiers whose hands got in fire, they put hands in flour bag and burning stopped and even soar/scar didnt come in hands after. its so strange how it helped. i kept 10 mins like that in flours, and burning stopped 100000% for ever. jååh... and then for night i put small dose honey on the burn area and plaster over. aamen.

much interesting dreams been at nights in this week. often i dont remember them, but now i remember from every night this week. some dreams are scary, some very utopic and fun.

last night dream was like from horror movie -.- some scary woman hunted  in some forest me and i escaped in to some house to a friend, and she helped me to get rid of that monster woman :D we put on house floors soap(?) :D and some fuel. and we waited when that monster woman came to that rooms, and we threw matchstick to floor so whole floor got in fire and that woman too :D then we tried to escape to car garage next to house and escape with car. car was some jeep style car. but car was broken of fire or something. and we were middle on some forest and there was scary. then we was thinking how to escape to sivilization, and we were afraid if that  woman didnt die there and still sneak somewhere in house :d i was very anguished in dream, then i suddenly woke up and had to go pee. maybe if need strongly pee, then see horror dreams. hmm.. or idk. i was hungry too. i didnt eat anything in late evening.
and yet in toilet i was seeing this dream. i very tried to wake up but was hard. then i went to balcony to sit and smoke, and fresh cold air finally made me wake up and forget the dream. then i went back to bed. but dream came again in mind and mind wanted to continue it -.-
was difficult to fall asleep again then. then i have seen many utopic strange dreams which i cant even explain. then i have seen war dreams. then i have seen dreams about how some minister will die etc :O maybe i have read too much political news lately :D

today im number 11 in numerology. sec i try to find in internet the keywords of 11 character.


Positive Characteristics: A Master number, the 11 is the most intuitive of all numbers. It is instinctual, charismatic, dynamic and capable when its sights are set on a concrete goal. The 11 is the number associated with faith and psychics.

Negative Characteristics: The 11 can be anxious, shy, stressed, conflicted and scattered. When focus is not applied toward a goal, the 11 can be extremely self-sabotaging. As a Master number, the positive characteristics will turn into obstacles when not understood or used properly.

and from other page:

In Numerology 11 is the most intuitive of all numbers. It represents illumination; a channel to the subconscious; insight without rational thought; and sensitivity, nervous energy, shyness, and impracticality. It is a dreamer. 

The 11 has all the aspects of the 2, enhanced and charged with charisma, leadership, and inspiration. It is a number with inborn duality, which creates dynamism, inner conflict, and other catalyses with its mere presence. 

It is a number that, when not focused on some goal beyond itself, can be turned inward to create fears and phobias. The 11 walks the edge between greatness and self-destruction. Its potential for growth, stability, and personal power lies in its acceptance of intuitive understanding, and of spiritual truths. For the 11, such peace is not found so much in logic, but in faith. It is the psychic's number.

my personal month number is 4 in this month. and year number 3.

i put the links here so i find them later at home..

month number 4: http://www.tokenrock.com/numerology/life-path-4.html

day number 11: http://www.numerology.com/number-11

my life path number, calculated of birthday: http://www.tokenrock.com/numerology/life-path-1.html

year number 3: http://numerology4yoursoul.com/3-personal-year/

about last year number 2, and this year 3: http://www.crystalinks.com/numerologypy.html.


number 2 also is thinking about food and nutrition things. anyway i have noticed so that i always do when im either 2 in day number, or of month number or year number.

When the personal year number changes with the new year, it isn't a sudden break from one number to another. Instead, the yearly change begins a month or two before the new year. Earlier for some, later for others.

and in many other pages too i read it starts to change in september 4 days after first new moon, but changing happen slowly. in new year time its completely changed. 
i dont like my coming next years number 4. seems like a sad number. and unlucks number. muuuuuuuuuuuuu.... i will become some serious zombie who only think work and stability and money and etc. like an adult :D  aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..........

pls let me jump direclty to number 5. 5 is versatile and interesting + intelligent number.

huh.. time is only 10:10. plz time goo fasteeer... boring here cuz again no work. just surf in internet and when go home, surfing continues there too. eeh.. im happy soon i get a work where i must move. there i will not sit. if dont count sitting in car seat :D but mostly it be walking and rising stairs up + down. jeeh... good my legs are already in good stairs fitness because i walk my own home stairs up and down daily. i notice i have got much muscles round legs since i moved to finland from norway. i saw old photos when i was in norways, jeans "hanged" round legs just, my legs were so thin there. because there i didnt need to use legs muscles. only walk from home some meters to work place and only stand there many hours. then again walk back home. and only 3-4 steps stairs had to go up. pff.. then in finland when i had to walk my stairs up everyday, suddenly soon jeans started to feel tight in legs :D and jeans didnt anymore hang around legs. and in photos too i notice how legs more tight now and "fat" :D in norway i was 46kg. now 53-54kg. huhu... big difference in 2-3 years. (eating is about same as in norway was). still eating same heavy meat-potatoe meals with much fat. and much butter on bread , and much fat on milk, etc. and ofcourse much strong fatet cheese. everyday like 20 piece goes cream cheese. calcium nam nam...

i often laugh in mind at grocery cassa when i see a fat human buying light margarin and light milk and other light things. why then he dont get thinner if he eat such foods? and thin ppl who buy full fat productions, they still keep being thin. light productions have much synthetical shitts which make only worse everything. ppl are so stupid really... ok lets not insult now. aaameen..

i found reason for my lately weight gaining .i have simply just eaten double rations of food, even stomach is full, i have eaten over much. then stomach ofcourse grows and take more and more :D

i have now started to eat smaller doses, so small that i just and just feel ok full in stomach. dont need to eat over full. ofcourse stomach space grows bigger then. good this work ends, so i stop getting warm lunch here. because i yet have to eat warm food at home in evenings. 2 warm foods in a day. sure i gain weight. in next work will not be warm lunch as i understood. i must take my own sandwiches with me there. good just. then i wont eat so much in a day. and then just make 1 warm food in evening.

annoying radio. some justin bieber shitt there.. give me ear plugs.. and because they always play same CD again and again. dont they have enough cd's there? only 1? :D

everyday same shitts. then when i go home, the ugly songs still play in mind even i dont want. raaah... if i could command here, i would put classicals :D but then other humans gets angry to me :D nobody modern and "normal" human listen to classical. only me cuz im unigue. haaa-haaa....


oho long blog text become of this. good. sec need look weather...


+4c. oki. a man next to me in other computer surely wonder what i write so long here :D maybe he think i write some romantic story. hööö... now i started to be anxious little. so hei hei.