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i just drove led lights to light factory. in the car was bad wheels, was disgusting to drive on snow -.-. waiting for coffee break now. gluuuug glug glug. next weekend will be long, because we have 5th and 6th day free. uraaaaaaaaaaa.

yesterday i found something strong washing liquid which is meant exactly for sofa and exactly for cat pee :D. i first test that liquid in invisible place of sofa, to see if textile damages or changes color, before i will really use it on the seats. hope its good and will work..

costed 15e. then dont need to bring sofa seats to wash, if this liquid will work.

i sent email to 1 certain magazine company and asked if i can go work there as a trainee. in january i must out of this building.. im specially seeking workplace that is close to my home, so i dont need to walk long :D not fun in -20c to cycle to other side of city. aha coffee now. brb

13:11 plasters in hand are wet because i washed hands. lazy to change plasters.

outside started to rain. soon will be slipperyyyy... here is 30cm snow now. in night came much. (1.12 edit: there came more snow yesterday, and more is coming :D)

when is much snow, i walk to work then. nonsense come with bike then, + because this workplace is so close to me. 7-10 mins walk. in friday evening i maybe go eat christmas food with mom to some place. nam nam. then next christmas food will be 15th and 16th december. and 24th. 15, 16 will be due the work. 15th here in workplace, and 16th we go watch some movie and after it with bus driver somewhere out of city to some idk place and eat there. i maybe skip the movie. and go directly to bus just. in last year i did same. 

need to pack 500 x 60 cm led lights from tomorrow to 9.12. (5th and 6th dec is free), so will be much work. because first need to make the light boxes before can pack them. i need fast get the soars in fingers to be fixed, so can work :D with 1000 plaster in every finger will not be fun when pack lights. soars came when i ate candies and chips in last week -.- now i eat healthy again. 

feeling hungry a bit because in restaurant was some fish soup which i couldnt eat. so i ate my own foods. some random indian rice-chicken thing, which i bought from shop, warmed it in micro oven. was not so tasty :D too much strange spices.

after work i need to ask if mother can drive me to one office. need bring some papers there. and also need go to apotecary to buy asthma medicines.

i have annoying tic in left eye corner. its been there few days now. grr...

and 1 week ago it was in mouth corner. now it moved to eye. i eat enough magnesium, b vitamine and so on, so its not lack of any mineral. idk what it is then.

what if i sell my piano, so i can buy the graphic card >:D. i have not played with my piano in long times. somehow not had inspiration. hooohoho.. never never will sell it.

now i go continue to fill my linkedin profile. just for fun filling it, because bored. hei. 

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tipsu is washing her self and i washed some flower buckets and other trash buckets with hard work in the bathroom with small shower, soap liquid and brush. im not at work today because thats why. ahahahha.. not your business. >:D. ok skin problems just. nothing else dangerous.

aaand.. yes i have not eaten any breakfast yet and i woke 6:30, and time is now 10:42.
i will go to shop before 14:00, because then all teens are there, their school finish at that times. my moneys are very in end, so i need to pay in complicated ways at cassa, so i dont want any teens there starring at me how i pay :D yes yes im shy, when need to do something awkward. ouuh tlph ringing. sec. ok done. heh..

tomorrow will come money, but i need some things today. i had savings for graphic card, but because salary day moved 10 days to other day, i had to live with this savings moneys :(. and now that moneys are gone, rest of coins will be finished today :D
gg graphic card then. cant play fs17 anymore then. i can wait the another rich days looooooooong.  because christmas coming and need waste moneys in gifts.

and tipsu will eat more money in near future. i need to bring sofa seats to professional wash, and its not cheap. then i need to bring her to doctor perhaps. but i yet follow situation if her heat will stop or not. if it will continue more further, need go to doctor and either get the pills, or castrate her. i called to vet 2 week ago and asked if they can write to me pills recipe for her, due the tlph. but they said they dont nowadays anymore give prevention pills to cats so easily, (because they are dangerous or smth). so they want to meet tipsu first to analyze her, before they decide if they give pills or not. will become expensiveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.... grrrr. she has been in heat 6 times now in this autumn/winter, but had ofcourse 1 weeks pauses in between each heat. but still im worried because heat is so long. was never before so long :O. and she have started new hobby due the heat, marking places (soft places) with pee. and sofa was the biggest target. i have tried to wash it so good as just can, with several liquids, but smell doesnt go away. now sofa is covered with things for many week, because cant leave sofa "open", or she will mark there when i dont notice. now im afraid of my bed, that she will mark there too. i put empty pizza boxes to cover bed :D (i knew that i will get use of them someday) :D everytime when i leave home, or if i even go to shower, i must cover bed for that time too. for mystical reasons i have not invited guests to my home in long time :D because they cant sit comfortable here :P

vet doctor tought that i will give everyday 1 pill to her. but i tried to say, that i dont give so often, but 1 time a week. because 1 pill a week will stop her heat. i have experience of it before. when we lived in norway, i had pills for her there, and when she got heat, i gave just 1 pill. and heat stopped after 2 days. cant be so dangerous. but vet doc does not believe me i think. she think i will give everyday. they only want money, thats why they request me to visit there with cat. visiting will cost 50e. and if they write the pills recipe, medicines will cost 10-20e. so, can guess i dont so easily wanna go there.. i will yet follow situation and look if she calms down. i dont have so big moneys in december, when need to buy other things too + wash sofa.

11:02. i need breakfast now. stomach is aching because of the hunger.

11:06  nam rye bread with salami sausage and cheese and grass onion. or grassonion. i dont know how in english need to write some words, if together or not. because in finnish this kind of 2 words combinations need to be together, but in english they often need to be separated. confusing.

in morning i got allergy attack of honey o.O. i have eaten that same honey (organic) millions times before, so idk why suddenly now got reaction of it. maybe some change in the product? left side lip started to get swollen, and some red spots came near mouth :D. but now all is normal. also skin itched much in morning, but its another history.

in friday i compared in some application in internet for power companys prices. and found some other company which have 0e basic fee, and sale price much cheaper than in my current power company was. in current was 8.80e basic fee, and sale price much higher. i ofcourse changed to the cheapest one, and took 12 months contract. could take 24 months too, but i specially took 12 months, so that i can again compare prices, and select cheaper one, when 12 months gone. >:D.  in this + last month i have been thinking a lot of my money outgoings, and shut down many things which steal moneys for nothing from me. closed 1 bank. closed donald duck ordering, (can loan them from library), closed 2nd tlphs operator. because i didnt anymore use it, and for nothing goes money for it -.- . and now changed power company to cheaper one. need yet think what other stuff i can change or close, to win money.. vitamines + minerals that i need every month, eat a lof of money. health cost.. but so will cost doctor visits too and medicines.. better then put moneys in organic healthy stuff, instead of synthetical poisons , which make in longer sight only more harm. and then more problems + sicknesses come. 

father bought to me for advantage christmas gift Stem Renu health product. its some very new product that came now to finland markets, 2 months ago. its one kind of fountain of youth product. that will renew stem cells and activate them to repair body and renew organism system in body. in that way human will age slower., also when it renew stem cells, it can fix infected organs in the body. we humans get fast old because of the stem cells that are slowing down and dont renew anymore. or like that i understood, when listened to their webinar.

stem renu's are very expensive capsules, but if they work, and are not bullshitt, then will be cool :). they should come in post in this week.
the ingredients in stem renu are interesting, for example in it is cartilage of shark :)

im smoking some old dry smoke, because the small amount of fresh tubacco i have left, i will save to work. because in work will be shameful to roll smoke of dryed smoke, and it mess all places when it run out of cigarette :D need only survive today, then tomorrow i can buy aaaaaaaaaallllllll what i wantt...or .. first need to pay rent and visit apotecary, and pay tlph bill and etc. then can waste to what want. 30th november should also come money. and 1.12 will come housing benefit. 29, 30, 1.12   everyday will come money after today :d. hihi...

weather got cold again and its some 20cm snow in my city now. snows came few days ago.

time is 11:35. i go put dishes in machine. later in evening i will vacuumclean. i will not now vacuumclean yet because i want go to shop without sweating. because in evening i go to shower, so better vacuumclean then before shower.

just a normal day in timestamps. numerologia day 3.

6:30 - alarm clock dared to wake me up. he/she should be ashamed..
6:44 - i enjoy this coffee. throat is aching when i swallow. but coffee helps.
6:55 - toilet
6:56 - going to morning smoke
7:00 - back in. brushed snow on the balcony. its snowing outside.
7:02 - getting more coffee and surfing on the internet.
7:23 - preparing for work day; brushing hair, washing face, putting creme to face, changing clothes, brushing teetch. putting deodorant.
7:35 - making bed and taking vitamines + infection preventing asthma medicine.
7:38 - making sandwich for work.
7:40 - rolling smoke + packing backpack
7:41 - checking temperature from google --> there is -1. ok.
7:42 - putting out clothes on and visiting toilet.
7:46 - pc off-----> and going to walk to work + smoke while walking.
7:56 - arrived work place.
8:02 - going to wash this keyboard + mouse. disgusting fatty. someone stole my yesterdays pc, now need to use another.

8:07 - ujeee.. now is better. other ppl maybe watched confused when i washed these :D
09:00 - coffee time. and ate the sandwich. and smoked. outside still snowing.
11:00 - lunch + smoke
13:00 - coffee + smoke

14:00 - left from work. and bought smoke from grocery. there needed to wait long time because some grandmothers bought + checked their raffle tickets.

14:13 - arrived home. and immediately i ate some sandwich, or half of it, then brushed teeth, drank little water, visited toilet. and hurry out again. took bicycle from the basement and cycled to one place, there needed to be 14:30. there i slept on the neurosonic chair for 20 mins + took new acupuncture magnet to behind ear. snow beginning to melt, so there is a bit slippery now.

15:20 - i left from that place, and went to siwa to buy thin sausages and cherry tomatoes + small geisha chokolate also accidentally jumped in my basket of the shelf. and cucumber also i bought. siwa shops will be closing and go to history. centrum siwa is maybe the only one that is yet left, but time question when will they also close.. many ex-siwa grocerys will be replaced with K-market. k-market is cheaper.. so its ok. but for nostalgic reason its a bit sad that siwa's will end.

15:32 - arrived home
15:37 - smoke-->
15:39 - back in and sitting on the pc now just and listening music. its raining outside lightly.

15:52 - chest aching, need to take magnesium + calsium. this problem been 1 month now, maybe stress. because 1 month had dark eyebags too, even i sleep enough etc.. also heart jumping heavily sometimes for 1 month time.

15:57 - again to smoke because nervous + need cold air. in room is too warm. nervous + too warm = i start to scratch everywhere. only cold air helps then.

15:59 - smoked just half cig. now need to change relaxing home clothes + go rest in bed with phone.

16:26 - feeling tired but need to keep on move, so i go put dirty dishes in machine. + make coffee. yawn.

16:38 - dishes are happily bathing in the machine  + coffee is soon ready.

16:40 - geisha chocolate + coffee. + surfing on the internet. i really hate THE word. thats why i often avoid of using it because annoying word just. only then use when its very necessary.

16:42 - or yes, i will read novells. i today saved a novell forum link to my fb (it shows there only to me) :D. i often save important links like that in my fb wall, so i later get them. kraa.

16:45 - ok the (main) link is not secret. its www.finfanfun.fi. but more spesific url i dont give :D anyways,  there are millions of (fic) novells. slurps <3. 2-3 days been total addicted and reading there.

16:49 - ok silencio, need focus and read. shhh. or ops need first toilet. because its annoying to go to toilet middle of reading when focus. so need go before even start.

16:51. - ok. and hmm.. actually need smoke too. brb.
16:53 - tipsu also came to smoke with me. now i will go to utopic world and read--->
18:10 - now need break. eyes hurt. smoke------>
18:14 - shower needed. but need to wait little bit, because after smoke cant immediately go, 
water will otherwise feel disgusting. 

18:22 - trash bags switched. need to remember to bring trash out tomorrow morning..
18:26 - need to close eyes for 5-10 mins. feeling dizzy + heart beating strongly. because been reading text from screen whole day.

18:34 - shower--->
19:21 - oho.. i was long time there. (shaved + cut nails) xD..
19:27 - fresh air needed (trought filter). air at outside is too fresh for my lungs, so need filter. also because i have asthma, so cant know what poisons i can breath if breath without filter. now a days cant trust anywhere anymore in the air. too much pollutant.. in 60's when i was a young girl, then air was very clean.

19:33 - need to close washmachine faucet and open machine door, so dishes get air. too lazy to empty machine now. i will do that tomorrow. or after tomorrow. or in the next year. if i live so long. hmms. also need to make food. but need to wait for inspiration, so i continue read novells a bit.

19:41 - now i go put french fries + sausages in oven--->
19:50 - done. and needed to wash spatula. because was not space in the wash machine for it :D. aa, and also i rinsed the cherry tomatoes. now i continue reading. i have tried to search e-books from internet, but if they are free (e-library or shop), they are some bad/boring books, or then, if i find any good ones, they cost very much. e-books cost more than normal books :-/.
19:59 - tuo yx tuli tonne pelijuttuun just. se on nyt viimepäivinä tullu tosi myöhään sinne.
20:09 - now i will eat. french fries, sausages, cucumber, tomatoes, garlic mayonese and ketchup. (spices; blackpepper, cayennepepper + salt). and i will continue reading. no energy + interest to play any games today.
20:45 - i just calculated with ctrl + F > smoke < that i have today smoked 7 cig. :o. if count in normal filter cigarettes, then its 4 cig maybe. so i smoke less nowadays. harashoo clap clap clap. need to celebrate this with smoke. ------>

20:48 - and my rollings are very thin. its like a half cigarette. and often i smoke just half. especially in evenings. in work i smoke whole because there its more like social situation, so easily will smoke whole without that notice. + because there i get smoke every 2 hour just. krahaaa... 

20:49 - i continue reading. im a freak today :P reaaaaaaaaaad read read read. 

20:55 - need to change bed sheets
21:14 - better go already brush teeth, because later im too tired.
21:17 - done, hair also brushed. and i can breath dot com. almost choked in my own spit :D *cough cough*

21:22 - idk anymore what i read. i only read the text but dont understand it. maybe i begin to be tired :o. last smoke now and soon sleep

21:29 - hoppaheijjaa hoppaheijjaa. i had to write this because i just said it really xD when came in from balcony.

21:41 sleeeeeeep. and i publish this text now. gn.

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. dot dot dot. i was not in work today because knee is strange and heavy. maybe its stressed of all stairs running and jumping. better let it rest today , so it dont get worse, and infect. 

cleaned here today + washed floors. next need to shower and then to shop. my work end soon, friday last day. then need to seek new work place. eczema is problem in current work, so we end the contract. reason is because its too sporty work, and when sweat, skin itch, and then i scratch it to bloods. 

sweating + atopic eczema not good friends. if i dont get new work before next monday, i go back for some while to ex workplace to sit and think what next. but i cant be long there, so need fast get some work. today in job-hunting website i found some potential work, and i sent email to them with a few question. if questions gets good answers from my opinion, maybe i can think on that work and ask if i get the place. surely that place go fast.. but i try atleast.

last days have been interesting because of usa election. interesting to see what trump will do. hmhm..  im interested but at the same time scared. (because of europe situation), and what putin will do. etc.. many horror scenarios i have in mind. and ofcourse other ppl too.

average temperature been for +1 week -10 c, and snow. battery in telephone end fast because news spam every minute something about trump.  i have news application in tlph.

i have lately dreamed little bit about ip 7. but still it will be too big for my hand so nah..
better keep this small iphone. i dont like big telephones which need to hold with 2 hands.

i miss old nokia times :))). today all telephones are 100% same. boring. nothing unigue..

actually i miss 1990's. then was real actions, and not boring like now, ppl just sit and watch screen from morning to evening. and then come black eyebags because of it :D

i bought public Ip to my internet. now dont need vpn anymore because now my IP is static. before it was dynamic. i pay for this new ip 2 euro per month. now can play games without much lags + stream. vpn ate always over half of my net speed. was so annoying. even paks had better net than me then. also italic problem is gone. and nat problem. and no more blackbox. haa-haa... :) #happy.

its snowing outside now. 1 week ago when was -4c and cold was raising, i took flowers in because i was sure they will finally die. but lol they died immediately when i took them in. they didnt like my rooms 22c temperature. i killed them -.- but yeye, they would anyway die now when very cold temps came. very long they lived anyway. from end of the july to beginning of november :D r.i.p. 

soon is christmas trallalaaa.. cold weathers + snow only stronger remind me of christmas. need soon waste poor moneys for christmas gifts -.- but my family knows that i dont have much money, so they dont expect anything expensive from me :)

17:37. käyn röökil--->

always after smoke i dont know anymore what to write. can be when i stand on the balcony and watch ppl who walk past on the streets or cars who drive. then mood somehow change and the writing toughts. and i forget what i was thinking etc. kriaaah. 
now need to write shopping list. bread anyway need for work tomorrow. i make always 2 sandwich for work. but sometimes i dont eat the both. and then it fly to trash. im bad human :)). jooh heippa.