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my coffee taste little... khh khh sweet. i accidentally poured 3-5 spoon sugar in the cup when had to put 1. i poured directly from the bag, and from bag jumped some very big sugar clot :P i dont mix it too hardly so it wont taste too strong. and can use it in another coffee dose the same sugars . hehhe. and nonono, not white poison sugar, but cocos sugar. 

tipsu noob not eaten in 2 or 3 days anything. i changed food brand. and she dont like it. i dont give up. i put still everyday the foods. and then when they are still there in the next morning, i brutally throw the foods and wash cup and put new dose. :D she should give up soon. .

work continue 1.6 wednesday. juhuuu... im working on my sleep regime now, turning it back to "normal". they self let me choose the beginning day, so i specially took wednesday and month begin, so that i get enough time to switch my sleep regime back. and because its nice to start in new month beginning. like from clean table. sleep regime not easy to switch back over because i have slept to afternoons :D need learn to wake up 6:30 again. help help..

but now is 10:18. i woke some 30 mins ago. so im not faraway anymore :)
tomorrow i put alarm clock to 9:00. then in tuesday to 7:30. maybe this be good?
and wednesday 6:45. 6:45 is ok cuz i will not eat breakfast, but eat in work then.
yesterday i woke at 11 or 12. dont remember.

i changed allergy medicine because kestine not helping. 2 last days i have taken double doses it, and buhuhuulllshitt.. helping nothing. nose bleed, eyes bleed, and need to sneeze 1000000 times in a day. i then remembered that some doctor wrote to me recipe to another allergy medicine some months ago, but i never bought it from apotecary cuz i was loyal to my kestine :D now in pollen map http://norkko.fi i see pollen dust is full in attack around here now. 
so yesterday i bought Histec 10mg. testing it now. took 1 h ago. im scared if histec will make tired. many allergy medicines do that. kestine never did. in work days medicine zombie tiredness wont be good. 

yesterday was very hot day. even was just 18-19c in shadow, but felt like 30+. or ok sure felt 30+ when sat directly under sun whole evening. anyway nice was. we was on the picnics in 2 different place. first in paltaniemi and then later in evening we took food (chicken+rice with salad) from some pizzeria and went to eat to an other place. finnish ppl also love to sit outside when sun, on the grass and like that, but they never have anything coffee's with them. this i dont understand. they only have some water/soda just and maybe some candybag. but thats boring. why cant have foods and coffees and like that. in finland is not this culture i think. cuz i have yet not seen anywhere. me and mother much think about this, but mother said she take this habit from denmark. there they used to go out to eat and like that. and in sweden too. food taste 1000000000% better outside than inside 4 walls and roof. because outside is more oxygen, then somehow taste sense work better. or idk. its my theory just :D

neck itch whole the time. grääh..  i go smoke. maybe im nervous just or smth.

outside is same warm as here in room. or feel so. again coming hot day. sec i look from phone how much celsius will be. hmm 20c and tomorrow 22c. how in wednesday then.. sec.
................tuesday 19. and wednesday 20. thursday 18, friday 19, saturday 13, sunday 12.
ok. 

youngest brother has been in tallinn 1 month soon. i have taken care of mörri since then.
he give me some salary for it :) clap clap clap harashoo. but in workdays im more tired when first need work, then after it need bisycle to feed that cat. i hope he (bro) soon come home.
his plan is to move to tallinn. he rented some small room there already. and registrated himself there, and his business. he is escaping finnish taxes. rich ppl has bigger worries. buahahha.. good to be poor, then is smaller worries. and when the day come that he totally move to estonia, he will give mörri away to some new home. he cant have him there, if he for example travel suddenly to somewhere, nobody would take care of him. so it wont just work. here in kajaani i always can take care of him when bro is on the travel, but if they go to tallinn, then cant. i hope mörri gets good home then, now i feel sorry for him because he is so much alone.

kello on 10:40. *yawn*. need to get another cup of coffee. brb.
now in the heat days is very weak food appetite. as yesterday, i woke some 11 or 12, but i ate breakfast 17:50 or something :D somehow just dont feel hungry. but then in evenings i eat like a wolf. 

feel so tired. idk does histec this, or did i just sleep bad. hmms.
aa, and finland won silver in world championship. canada took gold again. they gook it last year too. grrr... finland played all games perfectly, loss 0. but then in final lost :D they were somehow frozen and nervous in final game. i saw it clearly. but canada also was tired. playing was slow and messy too. but eventually i can say canada + finland were same good. because both loss just 1 game in the whole tourney. canada lost to finland in the section game. zehahhaa.. that game was good. and also where in semifinal we won russia 3-1, was also amazing. always nice to beat neighbour enemy >:D russians were so proud + because their own homebase, so we very needed this win. and sweden falled out already in quarter final. yaaawn..  what to do now. idk. surf in demi.fi (forum) and look what young ppl discuss about there. there is a lot of bullshitt discussions because typical teens, but sometimes there is full sensible discussions too. and im not the only one "oldie" there. there is many other and even older than me. i have often answered to some fool questions by small teens. i love to help :D and isnt it good just, that we older "sisters" help younger ones forward in this life :P because experience. 

should vacuumclean this room. not done it for 2 week almost o.O because been so allergic. but sure allergy is stronger when is much dust :D if this histec will help, then tomorrow im able to vacuumclean here finally. i have been afraid to vacuumclean because then all dust go in the air and i will just get more sick. today i cant cuz sunday. need respect the resting day. 

father got work in some building company. there is long workdays but he is happy that he even have a work and get a salary. he was many months without job. also he finally changed car :D he bought newer van car. some white ford transit. 2001 years modell.
his last one was soooooooo hatsjiuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... khh khh.. horrible and etc.
i always shamed when he drove with it. when that car was on the park somewhere, it woke attention from 1km. other cars were new and nice. then suddenly my fathers car there :D

proprio.. now i start to surf in internet and etc.