hatsjiuh

work continue yet to 13rd friday may. then idk what after it. somehow been in fog in last days, not had interest to even talk or think about future things. well.. better live 1 hour per time :D
and no stress. but yes moon was in fishes in last days, so no wondering if serious things didnt matter in last times :) and backwarding mercury also effecting now. no intrerest to think about future at all now. maybe more i think about past. pfff.

thursday is free from work, because "feast of the ascension", i took that word from wikipedia. in finnish its helatorstai. friday also free, but its not any holy day, just for fun we get free then too :)  long weekend will be.. would be fun if we go to make campfire or smth.
in 1st may i was just home. aa but i was by marika in friday. 1 other girl was there too. we cooked food and played games.

i have clothes fever now. manydays looked for clothes, shirts, shoes, everything on the net shops. but cant buy everythings at once. so rich im not :D trainee working salary is not so much.. sdafsfadsafd.. i want to buy everything, all, now now now now. 1 jeans bought this far. now im dreaming about shirts + shoes. but better wait for next salary, which come soon. i have little bit panic also to buy things i need, if work is ending, then the summer im without money if need to walk to social office and begg benefit money :D:D:D with that moneys cant buy anythings.. now need hurry buy when yet is money. and eat poor food.. this month.

this coffee make me sleepy. bad coffee. shower too needs. i dont waaaaaaaaaaaaant.
maybe im a cat. cuz hate water right now. ok i go with umbrella to shower then.
and with scissors make 1 small hole in umbrella, so that even little bit water come trought xD

after work i sycled to my favourite place, just to smoke a cig, then sycled back.
im gone fater in last days, so i try to burn calories :D (eaten candies, chips, etc trash). but shshsh dont tell anyone. 53.5kg now -.- need 2-3 kg down. can be legs muscles too that are growing.. because walked + sycled very active in this spring. dunno.

1 tooth also ice aching because of candies. because i have bad habit to eat candies middle on night too when wake up for toilet. then eat jsut and continue sleep. and ofcourse teetch dont like it. need to brush with salt + normal toothcreme a lot now, then aching will stop. 

once i had very small hole coming and it ached, then i everyday 4-5 times with salt (not cleaned seasalt from health shop) brushed on that tooth, and hole disappeard. dentist also was wonderingly. 

i notice when summer is coming. all 40+ old drunkards attack the benches at beach  route behind my house. there is many benches, but always drunkards take the benches. then normal humans cant sit there. (like im any normal but ösöshshhs :D:D:) and when i sycle past them, i always speed up, because im afraid they will attack me or shout something "heeei gööööörllll. come heeereee" :D:D:D 

can never know of them :D. sometimes some single drunkard just sleep on the bench.
why polices dont go command them away -.- or maybe they try.. but drunkards come hurry back after. in norway i never saw drunkards on the streets. maybe because so bad + cold weathers there. here no wind + air is warm.. good for nolifers then.

jöööh. some old 70-90y man said in market cassa "merry christmas" to cassa woman. maybe dementia.. but now i go to get very fresh air trought filter. ok hei. the air is so fresh, so need to clean it with filter. ok now i go. hei.